So I couldn't sleep at all last night. I missed you beside me. My mind kept inventing all these terrible things. Like that you forgot how much we love eachother, forgot blackbird, rainbows, starshine, thunder perfect mind, time machine, everything. I saw you abandoning me and treating me like I was just another boyfriend. I know I'm not that ( Read more... )

I am so confused right now.... What did I say to Mackenzie that was terrible? I really didn't understand most of that post. I mean, I understand where you're coming from and all as best as I can from my point of view, but it's the facts I'm not certain on. I really don't have that much to say. On no level whatsoever am I trying to replace you ( Read more... )

seriously..... everything seems so natural and then completely not at the same time. It's wonderful and scary. I guess because I spend way too much time worrying about whether I'm an invasive jerk that needs to realize when it's time to disappear. But a greater part of me knows that I am welcome. Maybe even more so than I've ever been. And I'm ( Read more... )

hmmmmm... whata week. It's amazing how things can change... There's so much I have to say to you. Sometimes I worry that if I'm too nice it will drive you away, so I often remain silent though I know that deep down you want to hear what I have to say. So here are a few things. I love you, and that is so easy to say because we have been friends ( Read more... )

tumble tumble.............
????????
help...............

people make money an issue, they make sex an issue. They make all the things that aren't important become so. And then they forget the flowing energy of spirit. They attatch these other things to it as if they are characteristics of the spirit rather than just symptoms of entropy. Truth? It can only be expressed in parables. I stayed up late ( Read more... )

there's a center.... and i'm almost in it.
life is beautiful and i can swim it
i feel so free with the release of that feeling
i feel so balanced and secure in this scary place...
i am over it and definitely better off.
i love how the universe folds at times...
now leats pick up the peices and make a collage.... :)

sorry sorry sorry....... what else can I say?.... I really am. I had a fit and expressed it in words and now I'm fine... I know I'm better off with out you I just can't seem to convince my heart that. It all just goes back to how it ended. I think both of us can admit that I was betrayed in that sense. And it wasn't that you were the best ( Read more... )

c1: didn't we just destroy this world a few months ago ( Read more... )

I am the king of spades ( Read more... )