I dont know why I am so paranoid about my girl friends. Its like I always think I'm missing something and they are all having a great time without me. I feel like every time I am alone I freak out because I feel like they are all out without me. I'm so tired of wearing myself out over this because almost all the time...they arent even together!! I ( Read more... )

I'm so excited I can barely contain myself. Tomorrow I'm going home to Detroit to see my favorite people in the world. I'm bringing Nate with me because this is the first time I'm going hom since we have moved. Its gonna be tough because of all the bad memories but I know that this time it will be different because I am more on guard and things are ( Read more... )

So yes, I finally have a boyfriend who is amazing. His name is Nate, he's in the air force national guard, so hott, and has the biggest heart. He is so supportive and treats me wonderfully. Despite my sister's stabbingly harsh comment that "our relationship wont go anywhere," I know that I really care about him and he does me. Recovery wise I'm ( Read more... )

So life has calmed down for the most part. I am slowly learning not to be so dependent on people and i'm working on stopping the black/white thinking. Its so hard to live in the grey, how do you find the balance? Its so frusterating learning all these new things. Yesterday I went to the beach with my friends and I thought it was a great victory for ( Read more... )

So I decided to start this little thing up again because my therapist says I need to start journaling but I HATE writing it out. This is for me to vent and let out the feelings I have bottled up and cant express. I'm so alone right now. I do what I need to do every day and it hurts like hell, physically and emotionally. Physically it really hurts ( Read more... )

Guess where I am right now? Yes, thats right...I'm in the wonderful Amish country of Lancaster, PA celebrating Christmas with my dad's side of the family. Dont worry we arent livin the Omish life at all, there is actually a huge resort smack in the middle of this place that is really amazinig that we have been going to all my life. But its so ( Read more... )

Its exam week and I'm one exam ( Read more... )

This is my favorate time of year because I absolutely love buying Christmas presents for people. I love to come up with creative ideas and I'm obsessed with wrapping presents. I know its weird but I love doing it. Anyway, this past week has been pretty hectic as ussual. Its nice to keep meeting new people. I cant believe we are already like half ( Read more... )

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God is amazing sometimes...I ( Read more... )