After it ended I wrote out our story. I have it saved. The beginning and the end. I didn't have the heart to write it all. I still can't read it without crying. I know we've both moved on, but there is something to be said about first love, your great love. The love you always thought would come back. I don't think I'll ever show you our story, not ( Read more... )

One week and four days ago a returned from dreamtime. I spent four months in heaven while I ignored something I should have held on to. I have this way of ruining something when I get scared it may go wrong, so I have to be the one to ruin it. As much as we blame jet lag, returning home just returned the state of mind left behind. It reminded me of ( Read more... )

I leave for Australia for 6 months in about two weeks. I would give that up and so much more to fix what I have done to screw up the one thing I want in life. I've been dealing with some major depression and didn't realize it until it had taken a huge toll on me and now I feel like I'm scrambling to get that together, but more importantly repair ( Read more... )

My neighbor likes to start playing his bass around 5:30. He also likes to carry on to around 1 in the morning, if I'm lucky. I especially like it when he has jam sessions with friends late at night when classes are in the morning. He's lucky tomorrow is Saturday and that I too lazy to say anything.

I like how every time you see one shoot by, it reminds you that you can breathe and that you are alive. An automatic smile spreads across the face. It also makes me miss sitting around the campfire as it burns down, all three of us close, talking while watching in the middle of nowhere. It makes me miss The Wilds even more. I'll be back.

I'm here. I love the independence! I chose when to sleep, eat, who to hang out with. I have my own life. Well, if it's called a life, I'm not that social. I watched some TV with some dorm mates today, and we had fun ( Read more... )

So when is eveyone's open houses? I'd really like to come if I could. Plus, what time is Marshall's graduation? I plan to make it to that as well...

And I suck at bowling.

Oh. My. Gosh. Next Saturday I will be on a plane to the Dominican Republic. I still have to pack, collect my sanity, and not freak out. I think it will be amazing. We're helping stock to med clinics and helping treat a few hundred patients. We're also roofing a small church. And we get to go snorkeling. I hope we get to play with kids. I beleieve ( Read more... )

Today was amazing. Just plain amazing. I have yet to explore the thesurus and find a better word, for it was amazing. Soccer pratice was fun. I just wish I were better at goalie/keeper. After practice the day got so much better. It hit its peak in the early afternoon after which I went home and took a nap. Yes, I know that the details are vague, ( Read more... )

But i was thinking this past week or so that I honestly never thought that I would live this long. It's confusing, but I never could see it or comprehend it. Especially when I started getting sick and worse, I just never saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Now that I'm entering it, I'm actually happy. Funny how things seem to work their way out ( Read more... )