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Well I haven't posted in a while so figured it's time. The Future is bright the present is bleak. All I can do is look forward. Because I can't bare to look at the past. This summer is like I waiting game I hope that I don't lose my temper I'm not a very patient person. Well my Nino has once again made contact with the people in my family ( Read more... )

Hi well today I am officailly done with any and all high school classes. I went home changed and then changed back because my wonderful Godmother Tracy came by and took me shopping because she said she didn't know what to get me for graduation. She is such a sweet heart. I felt so wonderful because someone remebered me. So I got my outfit for ( Read more... )

Ekk this is kinda like my last week of school it's really freaking me out. I have a 6 page government paper that must be written by wensday. I haven't work on it at all yet. I have ton of Math anl work I have to work on but I really don't need that class although it would be nice if I passed it the second time. Drama is all fucked up because I ( Read more... )

I've been busy doing nothing lately and that bugs the hell out of me because I don't feel like I have accomplished anything. It is now officaily uncomfortably hot for me this spring and I dread the summer. Our washer is broken I can't stand it. I'm hungry but don't want to eat because I feel like I'm eating just to eat. God I hate this place. ( Read more... )

I'm going through this time in my life where I know that I shold be happy but I'm just not. I'm craving every drug ever used but keep telling myself no Marisa you've almost made it don't screw it up. I love the sinful taste of vodka. I'm trying to just take care of buissness but it's so hard for me. This enviorment isn't very nurturing. It ( Read more... )

It was sprinkling yesturday so I discreatly walked into the back just so I could breath it in. The roses were blooming this time. Nothing is greater then roses in the rain. I feel depleated My hands keep shaking.

Slowly I close these eyes wondering what will come form this chaos. Buttons keep getting pushed tempers keep flaring and it all gets blamed on me but I have yet to push a button. I wait and watch as they destroy themselves for nothing there is no meaning to their madness. I keep reaching away because I am scared at what my world has become. I ( Read more... )

I feel sick and icky just my luck to start getting sick when next week I must attend school. I hate the dentist My teeth still hurt from yesturday. I dislike needles to the extreme and he shot me full of drugs with the bigest needle I ever seen and I was like ahhhh and he was all what's wronge and i said you have a needle in my jaw. crazy guy and ( Read more... )

I have been thinking alot something I shouldn't do because then I worry about stupid little non-important things. I have a headache from comtiplateing. I feel like breaking down on the floor and just lying there. Would anyone help me up? I feel like I'm am that girl that everyone likes but no one wants because I'm not girlfriend material. I'm ( Read more... )