I'd like to apologize to all my wonderful friends in Bakersfield for not geting back to you guys. the wondeerful Marisa Cortez is the greatest and I will try and call you as soon as I get a chance I am so sorry love. I've been soo busy and just a lot of thinking and decision making about how I want to fit in to the whole college scene. I think i ( Read more... )

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Last dream: I was on the coast at Long Beach. Micheal, Adrin, and Tanya were there, And the coast wasn't a beach with sand. IT was this obstical corse with Aligators and we all had to go through it and the whole time I was carrying my cat Chevy. AT one point Adrin was in front of me Micheal was behind me and I totally had no idea where Tanya was ( Read more... )

life is great again.

I get excited over the smallest things.

I think I will go swimming in a minute.

That sounds like great fun for me.

Lots of love to everyone.

byes

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Maybe the date didn't go as well as I thought.

Maybe the timing is all wrong.

Maybe I'm not his type.

What is his type?

Maybe he likes me just not in that way.

I told myself I wasn't going to think entirely too hard bout this whole dating thing.

Blah as they say in Hollywood get everything in writing.

I feel at ease but nervous at the same time.

I thought the date went well.

Hopefully he'll call and there will be another.

If not ouch.

I hope he didn't go just to be polite.

Ouch again.

Well I will wait and see it is my only option.

I loath the time we wait for one life to end and the next to begin.

That time you can't really call living.

I've been having these weird dreams about new and old friends coming to my house taking things and leaving in an angry mood. And I'm yelling at them saying, "Your not welcome here," as they leave.

I wake up angry and hurt.

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