Finally left the 6th form that two years ago I was contemplating even going to. Made some of the best friends I have ever had and for once felt almost as if I belonged. My life has never been awful but I was bullied in primary school and ostracised in secondary. For the past two years I have been a wallflower in a bouquet of wallflowers (I know ( Read more... )

I have an important English exam which is 30% of my grade which I completely fucked up the first time.

Also, I have resolved to ask out the man I love.

In the unlikely event of there being some kind of divine power...HELP ME!!!

Realized today that I no longer have feelings for AG. Well, I still think he is sweet and funny and his passionate nostrils are adorable. So that's nice. Seven months (or thereabouts) is a long time to be crazy about someone ( Read more... )

Today I overheard AG having a conversation about what character in Homer's Iliad would be if they were Star Wars characters. Apparently, Menelaus would be Obi-Wan Kenobi... *Sigh* I love this man ( Read more... )

I apologize if I'm getting on anyone's nerves. I remember when I started this and it was only really to talk about Les Mis and occasionally my life. Now it's more of a "On my own, pretending AG's beside me" type thing. But I really have nowhere else to vent what I feel. I could write it on paper or somewhere else but...I guess I quite like the ( Read more... )

Updates so far: I didn't snog AG. We did different Drama pieces. Both of which went very well. He was very nervous beforehand and I did try to comfort him. In fact, I got to sit next to him and chat for about three hours. Which was...lovely. No, it really was. We actually managed to have a several fairly rewarding conversations despite my constant ( Read more... )

I had to dance with AG. Again. Nobody else chose him as a partner (bless!) so I nabbed him just in case someone did ( Read more... )

So today was quite fun! Firstly, I got to talk to AG at break-time which was nice. Especially since I've discovered he is quite political. The only problem was, a friend (who I had inadvertently revealed that I liked someone to) sat right next to him and kept asking me who it was that I liked. And AG gave me one of his awkward looks. I'm not sure ( Read more... )

Basically nothing of note happened today. However it does mean I have an opportunity to quote my favourite playwright (not that I don't quote the guy often enough). I didn't have any lessons with AG and at lunch didn't sit with our "group". I think he's trying to avoid me. Either that or I'm paranoid. Probably a combination of the two. CF is both ( Read more... )

The weather (being typical English weather) has gotten 'orrible and damp and drizzly and grey and gloomy and is basically not helping my mood at all. I didn't get the part I wanted for Edinburgh (although my lots of my friends did so I'm happy for them) but that doesn't bother me so much. Sad as it sounds, AG is what's really bothering me. I didn't ( Read more... )