the baby is napping... i'm waiting for lunch... and i have the urge to go hiking once more. i really can't say that i hiked all last summer, not like i had intended to, but i did manage to make it outside once in a while. i'd love to make it a regular event of mine to go take a walk somewhere off the parkway at least once a week. gas isn't as ( Read more... )

the windows are open. the sun is up and out and the cats are lazy. i am lazy, too, slouched on the futon. my laptop is really a bellytop. my unborn daughter's bum is serving as my table as i wait for her to make her grand appearance. like with many events in my life, i am waiting and wondering and guessing... what will she look like? how will i ( Read more... )

sometimes i really, *really* hate people, and i wish that i could be more outspoken to tell them how much of a dickhead they're being. oftentimes, it happens at the workplace and i can't say anything to them because i can get fired. or they can try their damnnest to get me fired and the whole thing would just be a big mess. sometimes i'm in the car ( Read more... )

hello again, old friend. what to say? the grudge inside me is gone, the shivering is but a nervous part of my past. all the songs i've sung and words i've said against you are a bitter memory. yes, they were said, and they needed to be said if only to blow off some steam, but i'm finally moving on. i didn't even realize i've let go until i looked ( Read more... )

last night the most horrible thing happened. i was on my way to pick david up from michael's a little after 10 pm, when i hit a cat that ran across our street. it resembled one of the strays that roamed around the apartments, but it darted from someone's driveway. i couldn't help but believe that it belonged to that house. even though i knew it was ( Read more... )

tonight is halloween eve. after over two years of planning, tomorrow david and i will be married in court. the day after we will be married in the eyes of our friends and family. we have quite a bit left to do, and what are we doing at the moment? pooting around on the internet and listening to music. will our children be lazy like us? hell yes ( Read more... )

i want to be a teacher, for so many reasons. for opposite reasons i did not want to be one, citing freedom and tasting real life as the top most excuses. well, i tasted real life, and the flavor is very bitter. the hours suck. the people suck. the BS you go through just to earn a living sucks. not that teaching will be any less difficult, but least ( Read more... )

i just woke up from a nap. previously, david and i were eating lunch and watching x-files season 1 when i just kind of crumpled on his lap, my headache from work taking over. when he shut off the TV, i shuffled my way upstairs to sleep; david curled up beside me, waking not long later to kiss me goodbye before going to work. i slept without ( Read more... )

the air is cold, at last. at least, i should say, until the clouds clear and the midday sun warms the air. but for the moment, i am relishing it. i found my GIR slippers shoved underneath the art desk, and as i painted various things for the wedding, i slid my feet into his warm and cat hair-covered face ( Read more... )

i took cassie to college on friday. we were late, but for once it didn't matter. we followed our own schedule and got there in our own time. after dropping david off at work at 4 am, i just stayed up. after packing, getting gas and starbucks (there is none in banner elk) (!!!), as well as stopping at wally world and micky d's, we got to the ( Read more... )