yep, im in san diego now. i realy badly want to find a band to play in. otherwise im gonna have to break my throat in again and i hate that. its all painfull and bloody and stupid. so somebody should be like "hey, be in my band" soon. i want to meet some new peoples too!! damn it! DAMN IT! ok, i go now.

feel alot like shit right now. it feels like for some strange reason the fattest cat in the world decided to sit on my head and he wont get off and its weighing me down and making it hard to keep my head up. i guess he is kind of cute though ( Read more... )

well, i dont have a job anymore because of this war threat bullshit. boy, i sure do like getting fucked in the ass because of stupid hick assholes. this means i only have about a week left here. then i have to go or miss the opertunity completely. i dont get to visit all the people i wanted to see, i dont get to do anything along the way. i ( Read more... )

Where do we go from here ( Read more... )

I changed my mind, FUCKING AMAZING!

finished new song! im proud of it!! now we need to start setting up shows again! i miss shows soooooo much. i miss them good!

i rid my life of it right this moment. never again will anyone ever let drama into my life. so dont ever try. otherwise i will resent youuuu forevvvvveeerrrr!!!!!

this isnt directed at anyone, the "you" stands for anyone who would want to soil my life with drama. i just realy hate drama.

moving to california as soon as i can afford it. hopefully by the end of may. i hate pushing it back but i want to have a suficiant amount of money when i get there just incase something were to happen or i didnt get a job right away. theres too much on my mind again. and its so hard to sort out. hopefully when i get to california i can relax ( Read more... )

too much on my mind and never enough time to sort it out ( Read more... )

one time a very wise person said to me "welcome to the mainstream, you can never go back. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxfuck selling outxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx".... as if the more x's you write the more straight edge and less mainstream you are. i just dont get that whole phrase, maybe im too mainstream or just not cool enough to understand. ( Read more... )