so i worked overtime tonight. from 3- 2am. i called jake and told him and dan to make sure they told lee that i needed her to pick me up at 2. silly me, forgetting how unreliable they are they didnt tell her. so i pass up 2 people offering me a ride home just becuase i dont want to leave and then have lee end up showing up. but ofcourse she ( Read more... )

theres a hook on the celing! why???!! i dont know why!!!! ahhh!!!! i think im gonna kill someone tonight.! yay!

i just went to wegmans with lee. we didnt realy buy much. i forgot where i left off in the last post but im pretty sure i was talking something about all the things i feel changing in me. and im excited about all these changes because in january i am leaving for california to leave all the bullshit, fake people i have met here behind. i had a ( Read more... )

i dont write in here very often but i have been doing alot of thinking and changing as the days have been passing by. i guess the biggest change any of you reading this would want to know about is that i am no longer straight edge. now that doesnt mean i am drinking or anything like that. all it means is i am no longer claiming. and if that ( Read more... )

and she is one crazy evil bizitch! im only writing in here cause you told me to babe. i dont know what to say though cause you didnt tell me that part. CRAZY! why dont you give me some of that evil? i could always use more evil in my life. lets go eat tacos!

what more could you ask for in life? huh? huh??? the show was fucking fun. theres nothing like seeing a bunch of kids who have never heard you before fuck shit up and flood the merch table after your set buying cds and pins and shit. new hampshire fucking rocks. i hope we can go back there fucking soon. lee and kyle rock harder than i could ( Read more... )

and tomorrow i start a new life

why do i feel like ripping myself open?

am i strong or am i weak?

one of these days i would like to go to bed and actualy sleep. im so worn out durring the days but no matter how tired i am when i go to bed i just cant sleep. its adding to my insanity. i dont know what to do with myself. im afraid of losing it completely.