try so hard yet fall so short

[misguidedxdream]

i've come to the conclusion that i am idealistic and that i hope and dream constantly. [i always thought i was pragmatic] its only that i have grown used to being let down, and that scares me. i readily accept watching my dreams disappear. i let things slink by, assuring myself there will be another opportunity. maybe that is my comfort that

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[xfallenrainx]

i told you i would call if i was home. which i wasn't. ever occur to you that i have major life changes going on over here? not to be a dick, but there's no need to freak out about this.

[misguidedxdream]

yes i was aware of that. i know ive been very selfish recently always focusing on my minor issues when i am well aware you have these things going on. didnt mean to get so out there. i was just ranting. i just need a push once in a while to get me moving. but ill do it right now. so in a sense you did what i asked.
thanks