it's been awhile since i wrote in this rusty old stack of thoughts and memories. i don't know why i decided to regress and turn back to this inanimate object for solace, but i guess you can't teach an old dog new tricks. after all, i've never been really good at coping with much of anything. this seemed to work for a little while ( Read more... )

my fingers hurt ( Read more... )

i'm an absolute wreck right now.

do i stay? or do i go?i have come to the first big decision of my adulthood. a decision nobody but me can make. a decision people can't even really help me with. the pros and cons of each situation are completely equal. i can't stomach the thought of losing my boyfriend, he's become such a huge part of my life. ( Read more... )

okay, novel epiphany:
boys are stupid.

and i don't have the fucking energy for any of them.

andrew and i just finished reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower. i loved it. i really did. i read it years ago and remember not liking it. this time around it was amazing. fuckin' great. i'd completely forgotten everything in it so it was like reading a new book. i think it was good that i read it with someone, too (rather, had it read to by ( Read more... )

blah.

blah, blah, blah.

"Despite whatever flaws we have and whatever stresses make us fight sometimes, I still love you to the moon and always will. I know you are still trying to figure out what to do with your life but I’ve figured out what I want most in mine, and that is you. I want you and Monkey and Fluffy and a nice TV to watch Monk and Law and Order and a nice car ( Read more... )

today was simply a shitty day.
and i just feel sad,
that's all.

its my graduation ceremony today.
i don't know what to wear.
and how did it become march already?
where did the last 3 years of my life go?
oh,
that's right.
time flies when you're having fun.
and college was an absolutely, mind-bendingly, undoubtably, fucking blast.

i want a rewind button.

i'm really tired.
like, really tired ( Read more... )