the boys (the boy and his brother) have been in the living room for approximately half an hour flipping through the channels on the tv. my boy just beckoned me for the first time since they disappeared in there. i'm lonely. it sounds stupid, but i miss rachel's myspace, i liked knowing she was always a click away if i needed some sort of contact ( Read more... )

last night i needed to write and live journal was down. i sat at my computer and thought about the day and thought about my life and thought about things in general. and i wrote. a poem, in fact. so here it is, now that livejournal is up and running again, i figured i might as well post it. thoughts and suggestions are always welcome, since many ( Read more... )

it's friday night, which means i'm basking in the glow of knowing that i do not have to teach any wretched little children for another 2 days.  that makes me happy.
we just went to staples.  if you are familiar with my super intense love for pretty new office supplies, you'll understand this.  if you're not familiar with it, well then, your loss.  ( Read more... )

i'm being passive agressive about the stupidest issue in the world and using myspace to send the message to someone that i'm mad at them.  actually, not mad, hurt. or something.  but anyway it's stupid.  and pointless.  and downright pathetic and it's something that a middle schooler would do, not a 22 year old professional with two career tracks ( Read more... )

we drank at 1:00.  rachel drinking the one of the strongest margharitas i've ever tasted (lots of tequila) that was pretty tasty and me drinking something with sobe energizer drink and some midori and gingerale and something else for alcohol.  it was a very tasty lunch to say the least ( Read more... )

i'm about to be totally irresponsible and drive to west leb and have lunch and go shopping with rachel.
i have no money for any of this and i need to be doing my laundry.
i don't care one little bit.
these random totally unnecessary silly perfect moments are the ones that make life worth living.
i'm happy.

we're not getting oliver. the landlord said no, so we had to accept it. which is probably for the best at this point.  but a piece of me was already in love with him and that piece took the blow hard when we got the rejection.  another piece of me was simply in love with the idea of having a dog, something i've never had.  i felt it at the shelter ( Read more... )

i got up at the exact same time this morning, 6:27 a.m after hitting the snooze button 3 times.  and usually i end up sitting at my computer at approximately 7:23 ish with a few minutes to check my email, stalk my myspace and then scramble to make lunch because i should have been doing that in the first place.  this morning though, i was at my ( Read more... )

i did not have to work my second job. and that was a huge relief. i just couldn't have handled it for some reason. it's funny how some days i crave the contact of other working adults, and others i can't stand the thought of it. weird.

we had steak and noodles and peas and butter sauce. it was delicious. i ate a lot of peas. that's unusual for me, ( Read more... )

*do go with your big boyfriend - he'll keep you safe and only scare you a tiny bit extra at the best moments ( Read more... )