i realized today that i'm kind of an adult now.  this occured to me at the grocery store this afternoon as i scoured the aisles for coughdrops to sooth my miserable throat.  this newfound adulthood hit me twice, when i picked up the package of cold-eeze.  i have heard wonderful things about this stuff, that it really helps curb colds, makes you ( Read more... )

if i have any regular readers left, i do apologize for the lack of updates lately.  i suppose i have been so busy living life that i forget to write about it.  or, more accurately and honestly, life simply has not been all that exciting, and i don't always want to bore you with the mundane details of day to day life.  and yet, i will.  right about ( Read more... )

i'm ready for the new year.  i know this because i'm happy.  and it doesn't feel like a temporary happiness.  it feels like a settled happiness.  like a things are falling into place kind of happiness.  a safe happiness.  an i can breath without gasping and hyperventilating happiness.  so yeah.
things are good.
things with my mom are good.  the last ( Read more... )

last night i worked until 9:00. not bad, since i was bracing myself for 11:00, which, quite frankly, i'm just not used to anymore. but with the lack of paycheck that will be coming from the school, i need to compensate hours somewhere this week, so IP it is. none of this is relevant though ( Read more... )

i took a sick day from school on wednesday so that i could go to the mall and see my dad for a christmas visit. i talked with the teacher at the school ahead of time, she suggested that be the route i take, rather than waste a personal day that i'm hoarding until the weather is nice and i have spring fever. now, i remember what it is like to ( Read more... )

today we said goodbye to the student teacher that has been in our classroom since the beginning of the year, and to her twin sister who was in the classroom next door. it was sad. i liked those girls ( Read more... )

things were great.
i was on could 9.
i knew it wouldn't last.
i told myself i was prepared for the day that things would suck again.
friday was it.
the kids were shit heads.
i was a bitch.
the day sucked.
hopefully monday is better.

the end.

i signed on to post an entry because i've already posted two surveys in myspace and personally i think three is excessive. so i figured i'd post here instead. then, i suddenly felt like writing, which is surprising, because writing and i have been battling this week. i've been surprisingly receptive to ideas, random encounters and events that ( Read more... )

when i was in highschool i wanted to get a third hole pierced into my ears. thinking that my parents would likely support this, and find it as beautiful as i did, i brought up the subject at the dinner table one night. i was pretty much shut down in 5 seconds flat. by my mama, who was not such a big fan of the piercing/self mutilation/etc. i ( Read more... )

know what i'm enjoying right now? physical exhaustion. seriously. for the last couple of months i have felt totally drained almost every single day. it's been emotional drainage, and over stress and lack of sleep, and it's led to a feeling of exhaustion. today, however, is quite different. i'm physically exhausted. because i just picked up, ( Read more... )