What the fuck..........

[miss_dragon]

Damn, I knew it would come but why did it have to be today! I have bin trying so hard to be "normal" this weekend with eating and keeping my fat as of the gym.. But this is not working anymore. I woke up this morning and realised that I had missed my train so I could not go to school as I just have one class today. So I just slept. And now its 12.

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[forthis]

try drinking green tea without caffine, caffine can actally make anxiety a lot worse.

and with breathing try to take four small breaths in holding more and more air each time, holding it, then letting it out, and breathing in through your nose, out through your mouth helps.

i find personally that if i force myself to hold in as much air as i can till it hurts it helps calm me down because if the breathing hurts i can "prove" to myself that i actually am breathing and that i am going to be okay.

[silver_bullet19]

Hey, sweetie.
Please get back to writing your book! Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but sometime you have a moment. It's good to apply energy to something other that exercising/food, and, from my point of view, anything that makes me feel like I'm doing something worthwhile is a good thing to spend my time on! I don't know if its the same for you, but I bet HUNDREDS of people could relate. We're not alone, and you could help someone else realise that. :)

I hope you're feeling better by the time you read this.

Hugs, Lorelei xxx

[miss_dragon]

Thanks for your reply and I am trying to continue on my book. I have written down all my notes to my computer so I have it all saved. Im thinking about including some of the things that I have bin writíng in my journal here but its sad to be forced to translate it to swedish as the "feeling" kind of disappears. There are some gramar that I do wrong (I know that and I see it more now when Im reading it trought) but that can be changed.. So Im thinking about it as some of the things is from my period as bulimic and I have bin trying to push that away from me and the only way to remember it is to read what I did write then

[silver_bullet19]

I do quite a bit of writing myself, and I know exactly what you mean, about reading through after you've written it, and not being able to recall writing the words down. It's strange.

Well, if you do keep it/write it in English, and want someone to check over the grammar for you, I'm more than happy to help you out if you want :D

Stay safe, and look after yourself xxx

[miss_dragon]

Im going to translate some of the things I have written before into english today as another a girl also wanted to read it. So if you want it I could send it to you. Dont know how but on email or so..
Im also going to read my journal here and see what I can do with the material I have. I cant get out of the house today as there is to much snow. I got out with our dog but almost got caught as the snow got over my legs and he kept on jumping so he wouldnt get stuck. I love snow but to have over 1 meter snow just over a night is a bit to much.
Thanks for you help.
Hugs//Micka