I feel better today. Thats the way I work. I take a day and feel like shit- I cry and I sleep and then I get up the next morning and I feel better. I guess thats the way its supposed to be with a healthy individual. You're supposed to get the bad out with a good healthy break and then move on ( Read more... )

I missed my first class of my second day of classes. Way to go molly Sue. Its whatever. Jay and I was up late texting and then he texted me early this morning to let me know a song way playing on the radio...obviously he was thinking of me. Made my morning. But I fell back asleep and slept through my alarm. It is what it is. I was just thankful for ( Read more... )

I hate myself for caring. What is it that makes women obsess to the point that we're these crazy creatures that no man wants to be around? Maybe this is why lesbiens like other women... Because they want to be with the other person just as much... I hate how different men and women seem to be programmed. I find it okay to text him when I'm thinking ( Read more... )

I had a great time last night. I love this feeling of first starting to see someone...that slightly high feeling...Can't control your own limbs because you're so nervous. How you watch everything you're doing and you try to sound clever and funny. As soon as I got there, the beer box broke and almost all the beers tumbled to the floor. I thought to ( Read more... )

You know, it's awfully sad when I'm so lonely that I turn into the kind of girl I hate- the kind of girl that wishes for a man that never treated her very good to begin with, all because she's lonely. Pat-the-tic. I had a dream about the boy that single-handedly man-handeled my heart two years ago. It felt good to feel him again, how he adored me ( Read more... )

Its after two in the morning and I felt like writting down my last thoughts before I go to sleep, or try to. I'm realizing how much I wish I had freedom. I wish I had all the money in the world, not only to be able to buy the things I want and need, but also to be able to take care of the people I love and to be able to experience LIFE. You may ( Read more... )

I'm watching a show mostly about lesbiens. One of them finds herself distancing herself from everything resembling a relationship and anything thats real. I think she spent so long not caring that she forgot how to anymore. Then, when something real came along in the form of a beautiful woman who genuinely cares for her, one who doesn't just want ( Read more... )

Last night or yesterday in general was a pretty good day. I finally cut and severed my tie with a job that I pretty much hated. I quit the rfoc and it felt pretty damn good. After that, I hung out with Najiba until happy hour where we were met by Ray, Alli, Gimli, Ken and Bri. It was awesome to have all of us together. We all hung out pretty much ( Read more... )

Sitting in bed, watching my retard of a kitten chase a ball around my room. Man, i wish I was that entertained. I wish I could be that content with the little things in life. Well- I guess I am pretty content with the little things in life. I'm content sitting on the couch with a couple friends, watching a movie and chillaxin. Some people need to ( Read more... )

My heart is so hollow tonight. How am I supposed to just keep on going? My heart is aching for you tonight. I can’t ease this pain…its so empty and it hurts so bad. My can’t I just wake up and have it all just be a dream? You’ve been in my dreams so much lately. Last night I stared at your hands, that’s all I could see. It wasn’t your eyes that I ( Read more... )