Doomsday

[miss_obese]

This day I screwed up.
Binged for hours, rice & pineapple-curry sauce, cake, candy, candy, CANDY and ice cream. 
The food, the horrible, delicious, evil, tasty food. I ate, and ate, and ate, and ate, and felt more and more like my run earlier was just a preparation for this bingefest.
I wonder, do you get the symptoms like me? Like my whole body was

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[thunderthighs73]

"Noone in my family understands how this ED actually feels like. When I keep eating they think I'm okay. I guess it's better that way..."
Yep. Bingo.
They don't realize how much like addiction/alcoholism it is. The only real difference is you actually have to have food to survive, so you can't just give it up altogether.
You wouldn't think an alcoholic was doing better if s/he was having a few beers, right? You wouldn't be thinking, "Well, at least it isn't whisky."
People just don't get it.
I don't really get the same symptoms you're describing, but I get something similar. I get really anxious/nervous/queasy, start to eat, then sorta like this wierd panic I am eating too much and never enough at the same time... (WTF, right?) - then after I get to the point my stomache feels like it is ripping open, I go for the toilet :(
Peace to you, mate.
xo

[miss_obese]

thank you for your comment, again. It means a lot to me to know that someone understands, that I'm not alone with this.
My eating disorder is just not accepted as an actual disease in my family, which makes me think that I'm just childish, and then when I try to stop thinking about food it all just ends in chaos.

Take care sweety.

[thunderthighs73]

yeah, I totally get that. trying to pretend it's nothing like they do seems to make it even more stressful to manage, doesn't it? like it makes you wanna go do it more out of sheer frustration! or, at least, that's how i feel, anyway
xo