The feeling of being toren, is not nice. I feel like my mind and heart are working against one another. They should be working together which inreturn makes my mouth speak words of life over my life. I am upset yet frustrated with a few things in life. But aren't we all at times? I don' t think I am alone on that one. I wanted to go away this ( Read more... )

Frustrated is the word of the day. Where do I start?It seems simple to spit everything out but it's not. My mind is upset, frusrated among other things. I don't know where to beging. It just brings tears to be eyes, thinking about everything at once. It seems one thing starts and it becomes a domino affect, with things in my life. I go for one ( Read more... )

Uh..where to begin
So, this week I started off with being awake for about 17 hrs, but it was worth it because I saw my beau-t-i-FUL nephew (whom is coming home soon). I was happy though, because I held and feed the little guy*smiles*.He's too cute. Since, my family sounds alot like, he opened his eyes when he haerd my sister+ me talking.Then when I ( Read more... )

Where do I start? But I guess this is my blog and I can write what I want eh?.. great... type the way i want..okay then *BREATHES*..I don't know what's going on with me. I'm happy one minute..then something happens and i feel like I fall apart..why can't I let go of these things. I know I did along time ago but why are they still bothering me? I ( Read more... )

*sighs*
Life is weird
It seems I make a descison and things come flying back in my face.
I'm tired of it..if I have done something well tell me.
It's really annoying.
I don't talk to any one for along time and then something happens, and people seem to care again..hmm
It's just weird right now with thing sin my life.
People I haven't talked to or ( Read more... )

I'm dead to everyone..Im' the one that slips away into nothing. It's my fault for having feelings for something I know couldn't work but I wanted to try and let it work but now it's my fault and I can't seme to let it go..It hurts too much. It's my fault for ever having feelings and telling you. But I guess I wasn't open enough and  everything. ( Read more... )

*Breathes* well, that's a good way to start it. wow what can i say December was a stresseful month and very tense in my house hold. I am surprized I haven't run away ,taking a "Vacation" from things. I wonder would it really matter if one day I never came home and went somewhere or showed up late. I understand people care..It's not directed at any ( Read more... )

Lets try this color and see how it works..hmm it's not bad..well today was not the best day for me.I haven't had a crappy day in along time but it was pretty bad.I guess sometimes i beat myself up over things and just push them down farther trying to forget it but only make things worse. Until one day it blows up in my face and i break inside..and ( Read more... )

Ugh... So I am not sure where to write this. I mean I am not one for the world reading my thoughs and then again I dont' tell people what's going on with me. It seems when thnigs start to go right things go wrong . I have so much onmy mind that I don't sleep right any more. I don't usually sleep more than 7 hours ever. The other night I only slept ( Read more... )

Whoa.. I guess it's been another little bit since I"ve written, Day by day..life seems to change..at this point in life.there is so much to do..that it's hard to keep the mind straight.. It seems things jsut keep coming and coming.. But I am standing on my 2 feet.. I am exhausted but I am sitll standing... Work is been frustrating but oh well eh ( Read more... )