Wow, so much has happened to me since i last wrote in here. so many decisions made, so many changes for me. i think maybe once it stops feeling like my life has completely fallen apart i will be able to once again find some place where i fit. if that ever happens ( Read more... )

U know, I'm tired of playin this game called life, b/c that's what it's turned into, some sick and twisted game. i walk around the board in endless circles b/c the truth is, i do'nt know what it is that i want or who it is that i really am or want ot be. occasionaly i step on those spaces that have u make decisions, u know, go this way or go that ( Read more... )

In the near future, i forsee so much ending for me and those around me. we end this clique that we have all found a home in and the way of life that we have found within it. we end the summer. we end relationships. we end so much. and for many of my friends, they get this new beginning. they get a new school, with new ppls and new experiences ( Read more... )

Wow, my spree of updatin ended again, and now i'm back a few weeks later like normal, lol. things for me right now r pretty good. i'm outta school, and i even did better this semester than last semester. i'm in a relationship again (with the guy that i went to prom with for those of u who i haven't talked to) and i'm very happy with that, hehe ( Read more... )

i'm not one of those ppl who remains stuck in ur bed sick for more than a day, but i've been stuck in my bed since thursday night and i still feel the same. it sux bein sick, i can really sympathize with all those that have been sick for long periods before me. not only do u feel miserable b/c ur body is sick, but everyone is havin a great time ( Read more... )

Right now i have the sneezies. In other words i have a cold and i have been sneezin a ton and my whole garbage is full of tissues and it's icky, but the sneezies is a kewler way to say it. i came up with it when i used to pretend play doctor with the kids in my camp group, hehe. it's a fun word. but it's not a fun condition. hopefully it will ( Read more... )

I think it's kind of interestin how we seem to associate certain things with certain ppl or places or events in our lives. I mean, u walk through the hallway and smell a certain scent, and suddenly, u r taken back to another time where someone important to u smelled like that. or u walk through a store and find somethin that looks just like ( Read more... )

Hmm, the past few days have been confusin for me. i've kinda seen that while talkin to ppls and havin them talk to me means that they care and that means so much, they can't fix things that rn't goin my way. i wish that they could, that they could just wave a wand over the messed up situations of my life and just fix things. i wish for once that ( Read more... )

I'll Be by Edwin McCain ( Read more... )

Shame on Me by Sister Hazel ( Read more... )