After seven years of posting here, I think it is time for me to delete this journal. With starting a new internship at a high school, I worry that I will be found out on the internet (as so many people in my program tell horror stories) and that I will be held accountable for something I wrote when I was seventeen (which I should (maybe) be held ( Read more... )

this morning, on the bus, i looked at my calendar to see when ben and my anniversary is.

it's tomorrow.

neither of us had any idea what day it was. two years tomorrow. i believe it.

even though i'm not freaking out anymore, i'm still way too overwhelmed for all of this. why is school kicking my ass so hard?

if my work doesn't have a running espresso machine when i walk in the door tomorrow, i am going to do keep walking into the office and i'll just go to sleep.

1) exercise regularly. i've been going to the gym lately for about an hour and half each session (15 minutes stretching, usually less, 30 mins elliptical, 30 mins treadmill, 15 minutes crunches, sit-ups, and push-ups, and of course, waiting time for the machines.) i hate feeling out of shape and exercising regularly has really improved my mood ( Read more... )

sometimes, i look at pictures of the lives some of my friends are having, and i get jealous. the internet is a really poor representation of how things may be, but people are able to (un/)clearly present themselves in whatever ways they desire ( Read more... )

so, i'm home now, in my parents' house. tonight we went to red lobster, which was especially depressing because they had the lobster tank in the center of the waiting area. not only did i have to go to red lobster, but i had to stare at their sad, insect-like faces, knowing that they were going to eventually be boiled alive until their protective ( Read more... )

i love packing to go home-- though usually, i just throw whatever i can in a bag. this time i'm going to be organized and intentional.

going home...it's about time.

- do all of my homework that i need for the first week of class, post-spring break ( Read more... )

so, a lot of things have been falling into place, faster than i can find excuses to blow them off ( Read more... )

at pitt. for the secondary education english and communications program. i want to teach tv tech to high schoolers.

this part was the easy part. now i just have to figure out if can, when i can, what i can, how i can, and what else? i'm not going to think about that now or in the next few days. right now, i just want to be happy.