today is the worst day of my life.
2 years ago today, I let him into my life.
if only I knew how it wouldve turned out to be the biggest mistake ever, I would've said "let's just be friends."
now it's me hearing that.
September 20th 2005.......I wish you never existed.

I'm tired of pretending to be strong.......it's time for a mental meltdown.

Hello vegas.

So I realized that i havn't even opened up my live journal in over a year! So I randomly thought, "maybe i should."

Life has changed sooooo much in that year......i read my last posting from last July.....who was that happy girl and how can I get her back?

Since then, I've attempted suicide twice, been put on antidepressants, lost everything and ( Read more... )

So.....It's been almost a month since graduation and it just hit me that I graduated!
It just hit me that I will most likely never see these people again.
The people I grew up with.
And you know what?
It doesn't bother me anymore.
There is a huge world out there for me (figuratively speaking considering I am going to little Chico State).

So far, I'm ( Read more... )

So.....It's been almost a month since graduation and it just hit me that I graduated!
It just hit me that I will most likely never see these people again.
The people I grew up with.
And you know what?
It doesn't bother me anymore.
There is a huge world out there for me (figuratively speaking considering I am going to little Chico State).

So far, I'm ( Read more... )

Being MC for MayDay was one of the best decisions of my life.
It was sooo fun and I wouldn't trade it for the world.
So far, my senior year is being lived out just the way I want it to be.
Perfect.
All the drama that was going on earliar this year is totally gone and forgotten forever.
POOF!
All the bad people in my life, gone.
All the great people, right ( Read more... )

Homework + lack of sleep = ugh.

So I've noticed that Livejounal is no longer the cool place to be and that nobody really cared about it anymore.
So I decided that I'm gonna be an outsider and I'll go on LJ instead of Myspace.
What can I say? I'm a hardcore rebel.
You can't stop me.

Anyways, update on me:
I am sooooo extremely happy right now.
Like, really really happy.
I moved back home ( Read more... )

So yeah....right now I'm in a really bad mood ( Read more... )

Lately I've been feeling like I'm a billion different people with a trillion different personalities.
When I'm alone, I feel alone.....which has never happened to me before.
I'm usually fine when I'm alone for awhile.....but now I need someone there all the time.
I know I have great friends that love me but something is still missing.
I can't really ( Read more... )