Had a yuck day, and feel like I'm still sweating tequila through every pore in my body. Yesterday is a good example of how I took it too far with the booze again and it made what could have been a romantic night into a weird event. Possibly ended whatever that relationship type thing was also. He invited me over for coffee, he knows how I enjoy the ( Read more... )

Man I feel miffed every time I hear that lady gaga song because its TOTALLY a recycled Madonna song, but Madonna didn't even get mad about it., That was so not diva-like. whatever. I wonder if livejournal is the only safe place left to actually journal online. I have a twitter and a facebook for when I want people to read what I'm thinking, and ( Read more... )

 Nonsensical post. Nonsensical day after nonsensical day. What am I doing? Everything feels like a fun whirl, Stella keeps on getting more groove back. Today I composed a killer ensemble out of random stuff I hadn't worn in a while. I look better and in a way feel better than I have in years. But my life is a mess. andso is my room. Feng Shui is ( Read more... )

No one likes the word "mandatory." Especially not when it relates to one and the necessity of pulling through an extra shift on the weekend working for one of the more difficult clients. Last night we stopped at the Front to see if Alexandra was bartending; she was next door at Ground Zero..I have not been there dancing my fool head off since I ( Read more... )

I sorta miss my old life, the crash-and-burn 80s metal song. But in a lot of ways I don't. Growing up is alchemy, you have to go through the fire sometimes, chemically changing and rearranging your structural skeleton. Suffering but silent, because the force of nature and of all things can't and won't stop because you're uncomfortable. My inert ( Read more... )

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It sure was a strange transition to go from night manager at a sodding Dairy Queen back to an office habitat but it's well met-I have been doing as much overtime as they will give me and hopefully I'll be able to pay off my plastic in the next few mo. All of it, and I am going to do my best not to charge more except in an emergency, because realy ( Read more... )

Yes, I watched it. When I got home at approximately 7:45, I was thinking: "Sweet, Britney and Kevin: Chaotic will premiere in 15." I found it to be at first glance like an easter egg basket filled only with the plastic grass. Like when you discover that your giant-sized toy prize from the rigged game at the carnival is filled with styrofoam, I ( Read more... )

That was the biggest fight we have ever gotten into...it just scares me how well we know each other, how easily we hurt each other so deeply. each retreating to lick their wounds, unable to rest until right before sunrise ( Read more... )

I just got back from my grandparents', which is why I didn't make it to King Diamond, sorry everyone. I wish I could have been there, I am sure it was awesome, did anyone go to the afterparty at the Urban Wildlife? My old band played there, I wish I hadn't quit singing for Mircalla, it was fun. I am curious to hear how they did ( Read more... )