I really need to be more positive and not just expect the worst constantly. But life, while already disappointing is so much less disappointing if I'm ready for the worst rather than hoping for something good.

Will there be good soon? I hope so. I sincerely do.

I did the thing I hadn't planned on doing. I reached out and not surprising I didn't get a reply. "Hope you've been doing okay. I miss you." Maybe if I send him a picture of Emma he'd respond? Cleavage pic didn't get any response last week but Emma did. Who knows.

I think I'm having morning ET on Wednesday in the building he's in. I'm actually ( Read more... )

Today got to have a walk around the area that I really haven't been in to pick up the signs for the various reception desks for campus closure on Monday, seems a little late notice? Either way, none of the reception really seemed all that friendly. Like, Znuie was the only one who really seemed pleasant and I've worked with her before.

The walk was ( Read more... )

Already the middle of the week and this week has felt eternal. It's been long, slow progressing days. Even my commutes have felt insanely long. A woman on the bus was angry at another woman for being in a walker and having sat off to the side to wait rather than standing in line. Flat out the woman is just angry and a nasty person. Even made a rant ( Read more... )

When the email for ET comes out, definitely going to sign up. If I am going to be waking up early anyway, I might as well go in early to get paid for it. Missing out on a day of work as it is. We'll see if I'm granted ET. Don't have anything to look forward to right now as it is anyway.

Still haven't heard from Kevin, I want to hold out and have ( Read more... )

And down the rabbit hole I've gone the last few days. Found a subreddit for children of narcissist parents and that just gave me a lot to reflect on. Finding others who have similar but still incredibly different experiences is something to chew on and contemplate, not that I haven't contemplated it already. I can't tell if I'm like more sated with ( Read more... )

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Another Friday has arrived. This weekend's weather should be really nice. Low 70s. I'll definitely have all the windows open for the days. I'm so ready for fresh air all the time. My list of house things is very long and I'll do my very best to get them all done. I have done so very little at home lately. Very behind on many things. When I get off ( Read more... )

Feels like it's been a while since I've posted but nothing really has gone on. Went to Tree of Life with my mom which I guess was a nice day? Ended up driving over 300 miles. We talked a lot but she'd ask me things then just as I started talking she'd interrupt me to talk about whatever else pertinent to her and most of the time entirely unrelated ( Read more... )

Discovered yesterday when Josie stopped by the desk and passively mentioned someone else who would be taking over Katie's spot at Atlas so it definitely won't be me! Thank God. While I love the building's aesthetics, not really a fan of the Amazonians who work here. Most of them are as robotic and cold as the robots they work with and not nearly as ( Read more... )