i just had a moment of personal insanity.

but the best way to deal with these moments i think... what i should have done...

is to have just turned on a movie.

A Peculiar Nightmare ( Read more... )

I don't like rereading my livejournal because i see so much pain, so much anger. and I honestly can't remember why I was so angry or upset before... i don't understand those feelings or what caused me to feel that way. I don't even know what the problem was! I don't remember, or care to remember ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in awhile, but just want to give some cliff notes...

-I went to China for 4 months and have now come back.
-I have a Canadian boyfriend who I met in China
-He's coming to my parent's house from July 12-16

I just finished watching Pan's Labyrinth , and it's a little difficult to watch. I wanted to sort out my thoughts and disentangle the jumble of things that I want to point out ( Read more... )

If only I could figure out how to love myself...

I am procrastinating cleaning. okay, i gotta stop...

Victoria just came over. How sweet of her. :) Well, I am going to Korea tomorrow. I am so casual about it, it's like I'm emotionally numb to important things, events.

Crap, gotta pack...

I am glad that there is such thing as forgiveness. I feel bad. I hurt the people that love me most. And perhaps this is what makes it worst... but I want to hurt them. I am so deeply sorry, I don't know how to express this. I am too embarassed to mention my actions. I'm really awful sometimes. Honestly, my thinking is so cruel, so terrible. I don't ( Read more... )

"A `good girl' is a woman who has followed the rules all of her life; she's been taught to go along with the status quo of what everyone else thinks she should do, be and want," says Dr. Stovall. "These women have not had an opportunity to be who they are, so they are attracted to the men who rebel against the rules, and they live vicariously ( Read more... )