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missmadlove

"I have this way of carrying on such fruitless passions fallen from the vine... "

Sep 13, 2008 02:06

Here's the thing: I date people and start relationships that I know won't work out. I do that. I've done it over and over again for years. One time I even did it on purpose so that I wouldn't, nay couldn't, fall in love. But that isn't the usual. Usually, I just find boys that I only sort of, kind of like and date them, knowing full well that it ( Read more... )

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lildragonslave September 14 2008, 01:43:50 UTC

Be selfish. You have the rest of your life to not be. From what I hear, it is completely allowed in the 20's and even early 30's ;)

missmadlove September 18 2008, 07:54:58 UTC

Baby, if I could get away with it I'd be doing this until I die, I just can't guarantee that I'll be able to not fall in love forever. I want to give you a piece of advice; I want to tell you to NEVER let yourself fall in love, it's a waste of life and it's like taking crack: you'll never get a high like that with anything else. BUT! It is important. It is an experience you need to have... it's just that it might destroy you. You can't not take love seriously and you can't avoid it. I guess if I was going to give you any kind of tip to avoid becoming as burnt and afraid as I am it would be the same sentiment that was burned into my mind the one and only time I thought I was going to die and that was, "Brace for impact. It's all you can do."

Godspeed, Amanda. Godspeed.

sunshines_hour September 15 2008, 23:39:09 UTC

I think that as long as your truly happy there is nothing wrong with it. Sometimes it's fun to date the people who inevitably will be nothing in your life. I don't know everything that's going on with you since we never talk, but this post and the one before are the happiest ones I have seen in a long time. I know that J broke your heart, but not nearly as bad, (IMO) as E did. You offered yourself up completely to them both, gave all that you had and WERE a good girlfriend! But they still hurt you, and that is hard to come back from. I think it's fine to take this time all to your self. You are young and beautiful and should be having fun. I admire you for actually staying relatively single (nothing serious) for so long, because it gives you time to know yourself, to be selfish because it's deserved, and to just let go and have fun. I just hope that when you do meet the right kind of guy again that you won't be as jaded and can let a relationship happen. That you can be open and completely trusting. And I hope that he will be mature ( ... )

missmadlove September 18 2008, 08:10:49 UTC

Here's the thing: this guys seems like a really weird but perfect mix of not-quite-right-but-right-enough, if that makes any sense? He's definitely the best of all the guys I thought would never work out and... I kind of really like him, but he's not perfect. I certainly like him a thousand times better than my Wooden Boy (which reminds me, I need to come up with some funny name for him on here...).

And by the way... last night I gave into temptation. And by telling you that here, you're officially the second person to know about it. Well, maybe the fourth, if you count me, him, and Simon. But Simon probably only knew because he sleeps in the next room and heard it.

I love you!