I thought I knew what I wanted and I got exactly what I asked for. So how could it have been a mistake? I am such a drunken idiot. Scratch that. I am a drunken idiot who is alone.

But wait! I got exactly what I asked for.... which was to be alone. Is this just a classic case of wanting what you can no longer have, just because you can't have it ( Read more... )

I woke up today​ just like every​ other​ day for the last month​,​ stres​sed out and panic​king,​ but eager​ to watch​ Despe​rate House​wives​ rerun​s stone​d ( Read more... )

And it’s starting to seem that the only thing everlasting
Is this vow of silence

Well, I guess that’s the vow that we took - but not at first.
At first I was screaming, those songs you heard two years ago
On that night we last spoke.

I've been feeling lonely, lately. That's not good. It's not the kind of lonely that a roll in the sack can cure, it's the kind that makes you wish someone would hold you while you sleep. I mean, a roll in the sack before sleep would be preferable, but mostly I just want a companion. A lover I do have to love. But that's as good as poison, isn't it ( Read more... )

I did it. I tried. I did the most I was capable of, which wasn't much... but I tried. And that's something for me ( Read more... )

I may have drunkenly fucked it up weeks ago, I've just realized. It can be fixed, maybe, but am I willing to extend myself enough to try? I kind of want this now, but... it might just be for the best to let it slip away ( Read more... )

Confliction ( Read more... )

Here's the thing: I date people and start relationships that I know won't work out. I do that. I've done it over and over again for years. One time I even did it on purpose so that I wouldn't, nay couldn't, fall in love. But that isn't the usual. Usually, I just find boys that I only sort of, kind of like and date them, knowing full well that it ( Read more... )

I haven't slept alone in two nights. I could get used to this.

I want to leave and I'm kicking myself for not having a job right now or any money saved up. Now is the perfect time ( Read more... )