DreamSleep takes me by surprise ( Read more... )

Someone with my personality type feels every emotion intensified ( Read more... )

Zach went for coffee today with his ex. He discussed it with me and I said it was ok. Although I would feel slightly uncomfortable, it would be ok.

Now he calls, upset, watching her sit in her car outside his house. He doesn't know what to do. I knew this would happen.

The fact that he makes me happy is undeniable, but I hate living like this. ( Read more... )

It's in your nature to
lose interest suddenly
we are both artists
who suck the marrow out
of each lovely bone

It just happens to be
my lovely bones
this time

How Bare


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Thanks for that.

I find it strange that we search
our whole lives for love
as though it were the
final treasure
the solemn purpose of people
in movies and magazines.
Yet when it comes to your door
one morning with calm eyes to deliver itself
you realize it alone is not enough.


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ryan and rob
i love and hate them each separately

( choking on the ashes )

Ryan took me to the movies this week. We both described it as "odd" - at times I was sitting next to my best friend yet it felt like being with a stranger. I gave him an awkward hug and kiss on the neck before he left. I don't know what is in store for us, if anything.

It feels like someone is mutilating my uterus with a chainsaw. I wish I was a

"I always lose interest right when I think I've found the right one."He didn't seem uninterested when his warm hand rested on my stomach, keeping me awake, or when he whispered "You're adorable" in my ear as I sat there crying. He didn't seem uninterested when he said "Hurry back" every time I left the room. Or when he kissed me on the playground ( Read more... )

My intuition is so good it's sickening.

It's been raining all day and I wasn't able to get anything done. I could crawl into bed and put on Placebo and not wake up until tomorrow.

On days like this I still miss Ryan. His new bitch has cat eyes.