Hmmmmmmmmm.

( my incredible dream. )

I am a walking bad mood. Sorry, everyone. I was having an honest conversation with Tim today and it ended with my semi-joking "have a nice life" because we never hang out anymore. He called me cynical and then I felt like a bitch ( Read more... )

My mother doesn't call me anymore. For weeks I have left concerned voicemails, none of which were returned. In a drunken 2 am rage I begged her to call. Mother's Day came and went; still nothing ( Read more... )

March 29, 2005I felt the passion of my rage in my dream last night ( Read more... )

March 11, 2005Last night I dreamt I was at a concert with Lauryn and I knew a terrorist attack was impending. When the alarms went off I dashed down 18 stairs then looked up at Lauryn standing there helplessly. Weighing my options in less than a second, I ran back up to get her. By the time I reached the top, it was so smokey that I couldn't see ( Read more... )

oh you

why are you stepping on my thoughts?

i knew the attention from you would be as transient as your warmth of your hand on my back

( THINGS I MISS )

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I tried to quit Xpect but the manager convinced me to stay. She said I am one of the best people there, and that I could adjust my schedule. I don't fit in at there. I'm not a slacker, and I have a good work ethic. If I overcharge someone, I tell him I made a mistake. I am white; almost everyone else is Puerto Rican or black. I'm not "Ma", " ( Read more... )

They were right when they said it, though I never believed it. "You internalize all these terrible things happening to you and we are just concerned that one small thing is going to set off an explosion." Countless family members said it but I was convinced that I was fine. Maybe I was fine ( Read more... )