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I never delete entries. I just did.

Today would have been one year. 11.11. I can't cling to this anymore. There is nothing left here but a fucking phantom. I won't cry today.

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I have a bad habit of neglecting my journal when I can't find the right words. At the moment, my brain is swarming and I need to somehow organize the thoughts. Pardon me while I stammer through.

( long nights, hard times, everything that makes you feel tired. )

I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done

I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done

I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done

I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done

it won't be easy for us to disengage
I'm at the end of self deprivation stageThis is one of the ( Read more... )

( the love of christ impels us - oh sacred heart academy )

( the first ever serious photograph of Claire )

I spent Friday night in the Yale emergency room because I was on the verge of passing out at soccer practice. I know it's because I didn't eat but since I couldn't stand up, the Dr. advised me to go to the ER. They did a series of tests; nothing was conclusive. The strange thing is, I still haven't eaten anything. The only reason I can function is ( Read more... )

What a wonderful weekend ( Read more... )