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Well this will be my last entry since my family have decided to take the one thing I love away from me. So now I have nothing i am just broken like before. They clai ( Read more... ) -
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I fucking hate feeling this way. Like I am fucking useless I just had a bad flash back from my former employer when I was about to get fired. My former boss fucking hated me which I do not know why she did but I forgive her. My flashbacks always come at night and there is nothing that I can do about that. I have tried every thing to not remember. I ( Read more... ) -
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I am so fucking pissed off right now. I am god damn trying my fucking hardest to things clean in the house and doing cooking and cleaning when all my family does is call me lazy. Its always the same fucking thing since my brother works they all want me to the cooking the cleaning everything like i am some fucking maid. and to top it all off we got ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: My Journey
There would be three places on this Earth I would travel to one Mexico to explore my roots two Spain for the people and three England for the history. -
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well its official i do not need my family since those fuckers think i am lazy fuck them i am stronger with out them just like i have always been. -
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I tell myself I am OK. I tell others I am fine. It is the truth. Is it? Nowadays I don't know anymore. What I really worry about is not getting an other job which I need atm, and how I really fucked the one I really loved doing too. I really dont know what going on with me anymore especially at night it seems that all my bad memories from this past ( Read more... ) -
Panic
I honestly have no idea what is wrong with me anymore. Every time I go out with friends I start having panic attacks. Sounds stupid huh but its true I dont know why or what causes them all I know is that I panic all the time when I want to see my friends. And trust me I want to see my friends but this damn fear I get stops me from doing so. -
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things are bad to worst at my house no matter what i try to say to them they dont want to hear what i have to say. i have tried to explain to them that i dont want to clean up any thing from them because with out my meds i am no longer the some what happy person that they liked. now i am sad all the time crying drinking pill popping person that ( Read more... ) -
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i do not know why my family thinks that they can make fun of me all the time when i see things that will not fit at all. there names that they call me too is really not useful at all. in all honestly here i have to wonder why didn't i die that day i was so ready to die that day. i offend yell at god wondering why he spared me when i wanted to die. ( Read more... ) -
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after trying for so long keeping this house and trying to keep it clean i have decided to quit because my family is not meeting me half way. i dont give a rats ass if we get kicked the fuck out again i am done putting up with there shit.