im really bored. and really amazed.

so, there was a guy 18, and he is a new member in my church, my mom invited him over after church today which is fine. we ate. he said he wanted to buy me something, i asked why. he didnt want to say it out loud so he wrote it on paper, (i tried to make him say it out loud). i put it in my pocket to read later. a minute or two he left. i read it ( Read more... )

So many unconfessed emotions will drive you crazy. they all become a big bundle of mush that you cant figure out what emotion goes to what action. its a complicated situation. i hate how i dont tell people how an event er something really made me feel, like the whole Bria Clayton thing. I mean its been like a week or two, everything was settled but ( Read more... )

my computer is really dumb... and i want to hit it, but i am restraining. i had just typed this huge thing .... and now its gone. this makes me angry, so i am not going to re-type it.

i fell asleep with my cat today. i woke up and she was sleeping my head on her back. Do you ever feel like someone is in your room watching you... but no one is ( Read more... )

Today is sunday... tomorrow.. monday. i wish this week was over. i got a job... kinda. i garden for this lady. $10 an hour. exciting? i think not. i have $133 for florida .... i need $67 more dollars. UG! that seems like a lot, considering i have been saving for the past three ish months....

love life? well none. but there is this boy... that i ( Read more... )

i go to my dads on sunday. i brought the newspaper article to give to him and all. Some of Cindy's friends were over and they saw, which was fine. one of the lady's said " wow, you must be really proud of your daughter."  now, being proud of you child when they do something good isnt bad, this is what my father said that hurt me. " yes, i am very ( Read more... )

i just wish people knew how much i care, and how much i love them. i tell them ... but i dont know if they get the whole story of it.

its one thing when some random people give you the impression that they think you are a terrible kid, which doenst feel good, but it is another when your OWN parents do it. always watching you, thinking you are doing things your not. i dont steal, i dont cheat, i dont swear, i dont smoke, drink or do drugs. so i dont enjoy the people at church, so ( Read more... )

i was such a weird little girl. when we would leave (to anywhere, like mall, store, etc), i wanted to take part of my home with me so i would "take the carpet with me" the CARPET!!!???  then, my imaginary friend was ... the CARPET!! thats so strange... anyone else take to carpet with them? or have it as an imaginary friend? i would also put food in ( Read more... )

progress reports came..... i did ok.  A's and B's.... i need all A's and one B.. maybe. No. i need all A's. AH!

Where I come from isn't all that great
My automobile is a piece of crap
My fashion sense is a little whack
And my friends are just as screwy as me

I didn't go to boarding schools
Preppy girls never looked at me
Why should they I ain't nobody
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