the pain i feel inside,
gives my heart a tremendous ride.
thunder grows with in.
making me feel as if i committed a terrible sin.

this pain stays with me, even when i go to sleep
wakes me at my bed,
if i am to tell, i soon be dead.
this pain i feel leaves me in the corner to weep and wail.

doctor, doctor, cut me open.
for i believe my heart has been ( Read more... )

today... was such a boring day. woke up at tenish, ate, watch "with out a paddle" that was pretty good. took a shower, got dresses, decided to go down town edmonds to get some chia and go to the library to get a book for school. Walked down town... got my chia, went to the library but they didnt have the book i needed. so started to walk home. i ( Read more... )

i am so bored. my head hurts so i dont want to play the sims...  i kinda want to sleep but then again i dont.... im not sure what to do. no on is on the internet... so i cant talk to any of them. (yawn) someone just like .... pop into my room and tell me what to do... i have been really angerfied lately. last like month. i mean, people who i dont ( Read more... )

i have been in such weird moods today..  morning i was tired, then in tutorial i got REALLY hyper. and went all crazy like. math (ist period) i fell asleep.. assembely... i was just weird. science... i dont even remember... except at the end i know i got really quiet. french i was hyperish again. and really just like weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee- ( Read more... )

i havent posted in a while... just havent felt like it, and ive had NO time. My head is spinning off my head. Ever get the feeling where you want to say so much, and talk about everything, but instead you talk about nothing, to some certain people, the people you have a certain liking toward. Bah. i have a real bad head ache. someone give me ( Read more... )

i hold too much inside. i know i shouldnt but i do. i cant help it. i am too scared to let it out. too scared if i told someone, anyone what i was thinking or feeling, they would leave. leave and never come back. leave and gossip about me behind my back, taking what i said the wrong way. i know that if they were truly dear to me, they would stay ( Read more... )

THE ACT

There were the roses, in the rain.
Don't cut them, I pleaded.
        They won't last, she said.
But they're so beautiful
        where they are.
Agh, we were all beautiful once, she said,
and cut them and gave them to me
        in my hand.

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate,
Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving,
O, but with mine, ( Read more... )

its been two years now.. this very day, add two hours, and it will be the exact (ish give or take a few minutes) time too. meh...

im going to florida... to visit my dear dear friend. From, June 28 - July 8.  Poor Clayton .... two full weeks of waking up to my face... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!