i have no one to talk to you. no one is awake, and those who are can't help me. heather isn't here and i can't quite find the gusto to pick up the phone and tell my mom since about 2:30 last night, all i've done is cry and pray.it's hard to even be in this room. it's covered with him because he's all that matters ( Read more... )

i saw michael moore's lecture. it was amazing. i hate when people bash him...for telling the truth. maybe he should've ran for president? mwhahaha. fuck bush. everyone just vote for kerry, baah. i hate politics, and i hate talking about them..but i hate dubya more..sooooooo ( Read more... )

i never felt better than i did on that day ( Read more... )

i'm at college.

i miss:
tomy. dawn. mike. sparti. theresa. nicole. my dad. my volvo. my pumas. my A/C. my vinyl.

i love:
my room. my roomate. my freedom. my computer. my schedule. my possible job.

come visit. write me letters. call my phone. ♥

i leave in a week. i feel like i have things to mend, to make myself complete enough to leave south jersey for en extended period of time. i don't know how my dad is going to take me moving out next summer. i don't know if i care ( Read more... )

okay, well, yeah. my family is really bothering me again. it seems like they are my biggest burden and my biggest downer. once i go to school, i don't think i'll ever come home. everything i do is a crime, everything my sister does is understandable. i've had enough ( Read more... )

has everyone truly lost it? i don't think i could be more concerned for my friends than right now. does this make me a really good friend? or a really pathetic girl? i dont know ,but i dont care. everywhere i turn i am reading/hearing/seeing drugs. yeah i drink -im not straightedge or anything and i dont think theres anything wrong with having fun ( Read more... )

i feel like all i want to do recently is design stuff. logos for tomy's band, hand bags for me even though i have the greatest one ever made. <3 skirts for girlfriends i've never met. shirts for my clothing/accesory company -electric LOVE affair- [thats a copyright]. yeah i dunno. things are good. tomy tomorrow. the cure on sunday. umm what beats ( Read more... )

things are much better. drunken karaoke was amazing especially when you do it with 2 of the world's most fabulous people. then the rest of the weekend with sparti as well as agurkis..it was full of laughing and chicken fingers and stealing from thrift shops ( Read more... )

you know when you have that burning feeling in yr throat, right before yr about to cry..but you can't burst out in tears b/c people are around? yeah, i have that right now. i dont know why but all of a sudden my dad's being a real asshole about money..but it's not with anyone else but me. granted, i spend a fair amount of his money..but so does my ( Read more... )