( My age )

Doing my usual morning rutean of taking nick to work, stopping off to get my iced coffee, and then off to grans where i read others journal entries before I think of writing in mine.  I read my friends journal entries....and it gives me a little info on how their lives are, since im so stubborn and selfish to really appologize, i just sit back and ( Read more... )

BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!  All i want to do is hurt my self....i am so fucking sick of this shit....its all in my head.....

As I sit here with my glass of store made chocolate milk, I think back on my weekend.....Nick and I picked up his little sister that he hasnt seen in two years, Kayla.  I cut all of my hair off....we rented a shit load of movies from FAMILY VIDEO and basically tried to forget our normal lives, that I find my self still living today.  It wasn't ( Read more... )

( Stolen from Hillary )

Have you ever just wanted to kill everyone in your life that has caused you pain or stress?  have you ever been driving down the road and cought your self doing something wrong in front of a cop and all you can say is "SHIT!"? Have you ever just wanted to cut so deep that you will just bleed to death?  Have you ever wondered what it would be like ( Read more... )

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Ok heres a recap on what has been going on in the past week or so. Nick got a job working in a factory getting paid 9 dollars an hour to start with and once hes full time he will be up at 11.45, but until then 30 days he gets 9.25 and 60 days he gets 9.50. I have an interview for a second job, even though nick has told me with his over time at work ( Read more... )

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Get married ( Read more... )

I dont even know what to say....im lost with out words....I hope that out of all of this, that all three of us feel justified....in regards of what jenna did im gonna write out all of what im feeling.

Hurt
Alone
Left out
Betrayed
Selfish
Empty
Selfish
Depressed
Sick
Sad
Confused
Selfish
Self harming