Well here it goes, ive completly given up on my marriage....im over it, im so fucking done that its sick. I hate him, i hate everything that he is and that he has made me into. I dont even know my self anymore. Remember when i used to happy and not cut? lol yeah that was before i was with nick...well once with kevin but i didnt cut up until i ( Read more... )

I fucking hate my life. I wish bryan would call me into work. This is my first day out of training and i need the money so bad. My bank account was ran into the negative my Nick, again. Guess how much this time? 390!?!?! he fucking went and bought a pellet gun for our saftey, cause i guess we are in need of it?? *sighs* and after all that, i ( Read more... )

*sighs* nicks out with car...it has a flat tire now....he was out looking for a loan so he can buy a new truck...yet we dont have enough money to go to canada? but money to but him a nice '95 truck. Personally, and this just maybe only, but i think he could drive his truck for a bit longer. Or why cant he buy a fuckin car for like 1500, instead ( Read more... )

Today was all in all a basic day. I went to whiteland and saw the marching band, took raley home and then went home. I washed my car, so it no longer says "Just married"!!!! LoL thats awesome go kim! anyway we went to walmart to get pizza sauce and pepperoni so i could fix pizza...i asked nick if he would put his tools up..he said he would do ( Read more... )

ok so here it is 6:30...i made it home at 6 from going to the west side. I hung out with zach for a bit, ate and then sat in the basement with my manager bryan...he saw my cuts and asked me about them. we talked about it for a bit, and he said he understood, like me, he also likes to inflect pain apon him self (ZACH DONT YOU DARE REPEAT!! ANY OF ( Read more... )

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Things are all as well....worked tonight at DQ. Came home and fixed dinner, chick burritos. But anyway it was nice, we talked and crap. I got to go out with megan and jenna and adam last night. Sun shine cafe and then to flash park to star gaze. Saw a shooting star...thats 2 in the passed week. Talked to zach tonight, hes really down because ( Read more... )

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Went upstairs, after being upset at the fact that nick hadnt helped with the dishes nor the trash. I was a little pissy with him, so i didnt say get up very nicely. Needless to say he said that i wasnt thankful that he was trying to fix my car and so on, so he said i could walk to steak n shake in the morning, i slapped him and called him a ( Read more... )

As you all know, i got the job at steak n shake...so when time rolled around this morning...not only did i not have a ride!! i just didnt go, i didnt call and tell them that i quit or anything. I am sure they will figure it out. So here i sit, just got out of the shower, waiting for the pizza man to get here. I cant wait until i start my ( Read more... )