My mom started drinking again, my world is crashing down, what else could go wrong? Oh i know...i cut again...6 times, i actually cut my wrists again and my forarm....who really gives a shit? I fucking hate my life, im going to file for bankruptcy...i seriously think im going to up and move away...chris can i move to portugal?

I feel like giving a few shout outs.....nah basically i just want to put some songs up here that remind me of how i feel towards my loving "sister ( Read more... )

The night got better after i fucking got back stabbed by my "best friend". Im so over this shit, megan and i's friendship is over, completely. Im over this shit!! so i ran away after going bowling with megan and jenna. I ran far away...and i just want to fuckin die....some best friend right? Who the hell goes around and trys to be with your ex ( Read more... )

Sitting here at gradmas....lost...kayla wont talk to me, she just gave me this death look when i ran out to hug her from work...blah...i dont know what i did? I dont talk to her much....hardly at all. There isnt much that i can do except wait it out and see what happens. Been working a lot..still alone in this fucking house. I cut again...like ( Read more... )

Recap...nick moved away to north carolina....we are not getting a divorce...we are just going to be seperated for a few months...david moved out because i went through a break down and i couldnt handle life, so i was going to committ suicide....so he up and left....ive been working my ass off at work...but im still alone in this house...mom might ( Read more... )

Just an update, im alive. Give me a call if you need to talk...Jenna says hi, she hasnt been on for a while. Blah...nicks out of my house for good, david moved in. My living room is pink...and black...blah...im so lost and dead inside. im off to eat with jenna and megan, keep it real. I love you guys....oh...
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It just keeps getting worse...as i sit here (downstairs), wearing only my hoody and chew on ice so the swelling in my tongue goes down...i wonder what else could go wrong...my light and phone bill has not been paid yet....oh...i hadnt slept in two days....well after going out with bryan and david to get coffee and little stuff (bryan was trying to ( Read more... )

Congraduations self, you fucked things up again ( Read more... )

Its been a bite since i felt the urge to write, i must not turn my back on my journal though because in the end its all i really have to let my rage out in. ok so heres a recap of what you guys have missed. Nick and i are on good terms, he has gotten a job at a factory where he puts labels on magizines, which is like 8.50 an hour. umm...ive been ( Read more... )

So my tire is still flat...by the way did i tell you guys, nick got fired from kroger? Yeah apparently he wasnt catching on quick enough. Blah so im busting my ass, going into work tonight on my day off...again. Ive called everynight on my day off to ask bryan to call me in. he said i can come in for a few hours tonight, even if i may not get ( Read more... )