Having one of those days where I really want a cigarette. You would think that after 4 weeks of not smoking, those urges would have stopped. But not really. It isn't as bad as it was, but I still have moments. I go to a thing online that is a smoking calculator thingy.. and this is what it said today ( Read more... )

I'm not at work.. I'm not at work.. I'm not at work.

It has been a long week. And I am off work all next week for Ron and My Anniversary. :: More dancing around::

They keep having problems with the system at work... but I don't have to deal with it next week.

I think I have figured out what time I struggle the most with the want of a cigarette. When I actually get home from work and catch up on all the stuff online. After that, I usually ask Ron if he wants to go outside for a cigarette. But there is no cigarette. ::cries::... I will be okay. Not so much the craving of the nicotine, but the comfort of ( Read more... )

I miss cigarettes. I really..really..really do. I am not going to give in though damn it! Those patches were expensive and I am going to quit smoking whether I like it or not. This feeling will pass. I know it will, I have done this before and the last cigarette I had was on Sunday, so it hasn't even been a whole week yet. Driving feels funny ( Read more... )

I am a terrible, horrible person for being so amused by my conversation with my baby cousin. Her and I are debating why she should be paying my mother a 100 dollars a week to watch her 8 month old child instead of doing it for free.. or for only 60 bucks.. for 65 hours a week. And then I changed the subject about how expensive oil changes are and ( Read more... )

I like wine.

That is all.

My coworker Robin is the biggest Douche bag in the world. I just thought I would say that out to the world. She knew I had a Funeral to go to today. She knew it was my Grandmother's Funeral. But she was too sick to come in.. because the world fucking revolves around her that is it. I drag my ass in here when I am sick to cover for her.. but you ( Read more... )

Honestly, I don't even really know how to start this entry. Lately I haven't really been all that great about expressing my feeling unless it is to my husband or my friend Amanda. And when I look at it, I feel stupid. Because there are so many other people who have it way worse then I do. And then again, even though it is stupid, those feelings are ( Read more... )

Dear Gods, I have been here at work for 12 1/2 hours and the last hour or so of it is me sitting around for 4 letters...4. I want to go home.. but I have to wait for two more letters. ::sighs::

You know, I love going to the gym. When we first joined, I wasn't sure how I was going to feel about it. But I told myself I was going to stick to it because I am paying about 20 dollars per person [40 total with Ron and I] and I would be damned if I was going to be paying 20 dollars a month for a key chain. I actually love it though. It is great ( Read more... )