i always know what i want. and i usually always get it. but right now...
i have no idea what i want or how to get it. and its killing me.

on saturday i hung out with markis
(which was horrible)
and after i went to my car and just let it all out.

i cried and cried. until i couldn't anymore.

i hope this winter brings only good things.

 i haven't updated in a while...
so here it is...

all a's and one b
on my report card.
thank goddd.

im friends with bryan and over him.
and i met a cute boy.

but im nervous.
im scared of investing feelings.

but! life is going really good.
im really happy.

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so when i see you...im just going to smile..
and move on.

i guess everyone gets over it.
thanks for giving me no choice but to.

i love forgetting all these feelings.
not !!!

 what am i supposed to do now?
thanks for giving me an amazing two months.

and then deciding that your life would be 
better if i wasnt in it.

please, never leave.
i like looking over and seeing you by my side.

you're making all of my walls come down.
and i can't believe how fast im learning to trust you.
i can't believe how fast im falling for you.

we can live life hand in hand.
we can do it together.

 i finished my online courses.
and then signed up for two more.
: (

i take senior pictures in two weeks!!

and bryan is absolutely perfect at making me happy.
he is everything i ever could of wanted and more.

my life is going good.

 done with online classes.
graduating on time!

and when my boyfriend holds me i feel like im floating
<333

school has chilled out.
it isnt THAT bad anymore.

half of my day is spent laughing. and the other half is spent feeling awkward.

but bry-baby is amazing.
and on friday (our one month!)
we are going back on the monorail. where we had our first date.

im really excited. and nervous. and happy.

i have to finish online classes this week.
LAAAAAAAAME.
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mom met bryan today.
she likes him.

and we hung out all day. and had alot of fun. he is the perfect company.
and i cant tell you how right it feels when im with him.  like, when im holding his hand...i feel whole. and happy. 
i finally feel happy. and i love every second of it. today we spent the whole day together...and 
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