It bothers me that some people never change.. even when you think they have. I'm always trying to see the good in people that are no good for me and I always end up getting screwed over in the end. Seriously, it just gets soo old. But at least now I know what to expect. I know I've made some pretty awful mistakes in the past, and I've owned up to ( Read more... )

I can't stand flaky people and I think that I'm surrounded by 342809 of them.
I'm really tired of it.

Wow, so I cannot believe how depressed I was almost 6 months ago. Those times were definitely the lowest I have EVER been. Those 9 months of crazy emotion were the worst in my life.I was just reading old live journal entries from back then and i seriously cringed the more I read them. Thinking that things would never get better, but slowly they did ( Read more... )

myspace is so funny
i like seeing people from my new school talk about me through comments on myspace
but they dont suspect i have a myspace so they think I'll never see it haha.
But since Im the biggest lurker.. I see it!
its happened about 5 times already.
"the new girl"
I wonder when they'll stop calling me that.

I just want everything back.
I want my old life back so bad. 
I don't even care.
Im missing out on so many things that I wanted and could have had
Things arent even bad here I'm just being a big baby
but when I cant just drive 3 and a half minutes to my best friends house because I need someone to talk and eat gross cookies n cream ice cream with..
 let ( Read more... )

If I lay here, if I just lay here ..
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars around our heads
I need your grace to remind me to find my own

Today I kept thinking about how much I miss being 7-10 years old.
I miss those years.. 1997-1999
hearing   third eye blind, no doubt, the new radicals and eagle eye cherry on the radio.
When I would go rent the VHS of She's all That after a long day at the beach with my parents.
Mission Beach to be exact. I remember being so small I wasn't tall enough ( Read more... )

Did you really want to know what I was about?
Did you really want to know?
Please your feelings out loud ..

My gas tank has been on empty for 3 whole days.
It's been kind of an adventure seeing if I'm going to get stranded somewhere.
Dang, the past couple of days have been crazy days at Vista Murrieta High School
But hey, I'm coming down this weekend, including friday to see my lovelies at school
I'm beyond excited :D

I tried to be perfect, 
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if they would it show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own.