what the heck, what the heck, what the heck, what the heck!!
I just dont even know what to think?
Why do I even write in this.
I guess it makes me feel a little bit better
but seriously. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

Wow, when it rains it pours. I really wish I knew why this always ends up happening to me.

The other night it felt like christmas. My nose was cold, my hands were numb, and i could see my breath outside. It smelled like fireplace and mesquite. This weather makes me feel like I should be at my old house. It feels so weird knowing that I'm going to be spending the holidays not in my other dining room, not in my other living room, not ( Read more... )

yikes spikes,
SATS tommorow morning.
ahh.

So weird that my birthday is tommorow.

I can't believe it will be a year tommorow since that day..

this past year has gone by soo fast.

its soo crazy.

edit:: I just realized something today and now I know I can finally say that
I'm doing fine without you.

Ew at getting sick.
I feel like I just got out of a really bad car accident.
I can't wait to see everyone this weekend though.
And tommorow in anatomy I'm skinning and dissecting a cat.
Life really couldn't get any better.

Wow its october already and it feels soo weird. The next couple of months are going to be soo exciting, I can't wait. My birthday is in 12 days! Applying for college this month is going to be crazy. Cal State San Marcos, here I come. Honestly, I've been enjoying life a lot lately. In contrast to what it was a couple months ago, its going so much  ( Read more... )

I've been missing people a lot lately but its okay.
because when I see them it seriously is amazing.
This weekend was a lot of fun.
Things here are looking up too.
I've been getting the hang of things.
And I absolutely love my fashion design class right now.
btw, senior year whats up?

I'm so fed up with the stupid things that people say or do.
I don't know why I let that put me in such a bad mood.
Some people are never going to change.
For some reason now I don't have any tolerance for obnoxious people.

There was a thunderstorm here last night. It was 2 in the morning and I woke up to that familiar smell of rain on a summer night. Everytime I smell that I always get the weirdest feeling in my stomach.. like a whole bunch of knots building up all at once. It made me think of that night almost a year ago. It smelled that same exact way that night  ( Read more... )