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Be positive, I try
What’s the difference between wanting to sleep my life away and living it BUT putting my thoughts and worries on mute? Put my adult existence on mute.
Finally! After 7, no wait, 9 years... I have found a ( Read more... ) -
I have the power
I set up a trap, all lies, and you failed. It’s just so funny how something that can feel so true, is a lie.
Get ready because this is the end.
Written 11.08.07 -
My Achilles’ tendon has been a real b thx
Alas, I have been struggling with my own happiness. DEPRESSION The only one who ever makes me feel better and complete is him❤️ At moments, when I’m at my lowest, he always brings me back up to breathe ❤️ ( Read more... ) -
Suicide is fucking selfish
There was no agenda of suicide ( Read more... ) -
Emotions never run dry
countless entries of heartache, melancholy, depression, anger, just numerous quantities of emotion. I've been reading through the years 2006 to 2008 entries for about two days now. I cannot believe that person was me. It's so sad, the things I put myself through. Between the isolation, the over socialization, the self loathing, the illnesses of not ( Read more... ) -
the challenges of 2007
never be a slave to your negative emotions. never let them control you. never believe in giving up to someone who say they understand. they may but do not become vulnerable. never search for happiness of others before your own. wait for love. One day you will find it. perhaps not soon enough, but time is of the essence. WAIT. For yourself, please. ( Read more... ) -
High school....smigh sschool
Has one ever realized that they will never see their must trustworthy friend(s) from high school? For me, nearly than 10 years ago, it has been since graduation. This kid I had a major crush on, the blue eyes kid....he is now gay. That's upsetting. Anyways, even in high school, he had so many gal friends which oddly then showed you were gay. All ( Read more... ) -
Am I in the correct path
Jumbled thoughts between the past, present and future in regards to a career. Am I following the correct path? Is there not enough motivation in myself to strive for that career? At times, I feel happy with my current job, but other times feel empty. Thank goodness for no pressure from the parentals. Perhaps, when my mind has time to wander, it ( Read more... ) -
Catch your happiness, it'll be there forever
If society was the way it is now and I still spoke "suicidally" in my own metaphors....someone should have saved me from myself. As I go back throughout this journal, my god! I cannot I wrote a lot of the things I did. And I remember feeling the way I did, ever so depressed ( Read more... ) -
Addiction: sleep
& he posed the question, "if you love sleeping so much, then you must be depressed ( Read more... )