i would say it's entirely possible that i'm not going to sleep tonight. i just played ketchup with Sa....... ::thinks:: ... t'was a very good thing.. I'm glad she called me. ::chomps cookie and chugs orange soda:: kurt and i are hanging out tomorrow... i'm very excited about that. should be way cool. eh.. ah.. ::scratches side:: i miss ( Read more... )

i need sean more than anything. i need him here and now. he can't hear me calling him.. but it seems everyone around me can... everyone... but him. i awake shivering in his cold sweat and kill myself with his friends wet fingered razorblade. i'm a mangled bloodsplash. my body doesn't feel so real.. anymore. cute cotton panties.. no one to ( Read more... )

sick of smoking. fresh and pink, me, i'm lost. i wrote him but he couldn't understand it. simplicity in challenge, find me dressing up to die. i want to do whatever it takes to keep her awake but i know my laziness will let her fall straight through the breakaways. today we coiled around roads that i wanted so badly to mean something.. ( Read more... )

"I do not recognize the vessle.. but the eyes seem so familar ( Read more... )

sex

i bound through the light to smack my face against your door.

I'm kidknapping tyler and krystal and taking them to inspiration teday around five.. calling chase around 6:30 tomorrow morning.. laying with kurt in my bed in fantazies all afternoon and taking a long, long... long shower to joy division in five.. four.. three.. two.. one..

The past few hours have been kind of a blur ( Read more... )

if you can hear me, listen to what i need to say and retort, please, i need you ( Read more... )

i just watched october sky with choke-on-dick... i fell asleep half way through but what i saw of it i really liked. i've been falling asleep at the strangest times.. i'm beginning to feel like sean. in something like ten minutes ima watch blue velvet (a david lynch film i haven't seen in a rilly long time). i miss laura miserably. she's coming ( Read more... )

yesterday was beautiful. kurt gave me so many wonderful gifts and he probably isn't even aware of half of them. he's amazing.. i can't even..... eh............... i can't even say much more than that without getting frustrated that i can't explain myself properly... laura has this effect on everyone. heh... ::blink:: ::lights first smoke of ( Read more... )

::sighs and lights a smoke ( Read more... )