i'm so fuckin' sick of everything being my fault!!! i'm sick and tired of being depressed... i feel like everyone's tryin' to close me out and put pressure on me to be something i'm not. and i'm getting blamed for shit i did like last year... it's a lil redonkulous. i just wanna scream and run away. yah i finally got myself a car, and that helps ( Read more... )

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LJ Interests meme results

1. bowling:
   Bowling is like sex... well bowling is code word for sex. but i finally got over a 500 series... well it was 520. my goal is to beat a 196 which is my high score.
2. chatting:
   i'm not chattin' with anyone right now. which sux.
3. clubbing:
   i miss clubbin'. i wanna go to shampoo and another kool club called the foggy ( Read more... )

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so yah i started my job at wawa yesterday. I LOVE IT!! i was makin' hoagies today, and wraps. jane calls me the wrap queen, 'cuz i'm so fast for bein' new... i still haven't gotten register, which sux, but i'm gettin' there. i didn't appreciate how much work those guys go through durin' lunch hour until i did hoagies for lunch rush. jed stopped in ( Read more... )

when he says i love you, does he really mean it? he says it to all his friends, so i wonder if mines special. i'm paranoid. i'm lost. i've lost my will to live. everything is going so horrible and i can't let it out. i hafta be the one that makes it seem like everything is actually ok. but nothing is ok. i can't think i can't function. why am i so ( Read more... )

i'm so excited i had an interview today and i got a job at wawa!! i'm really excited about it. i'm also excited about goin' to long island nxt week. i hope everything goes as planned. 'cuz we only got like 200 dollars to spend. kinda sucks. but i don't think that it'll cost that much to do everything as long as we don't hafta get a hotel and can ( Read more... )

if anyone here is also on my myspace account, rachel has recently brought to my attention that a girl imed her asking for my number and address. very few of you know my number let alone my adress. if this bothers u let me kno. i apologize if she has upset anyone it is out of my control and u guyz did nothing wrong. so please don't give her any info ( Read more... )

ya kno, my boyfriend is using his lj to vent so now it's my turn.

( my venting, read if ya feel like it )

i'm so excited, jed's taking off school for three weeks so him and i can spend time together!! which means basically whenever justin comes home i'm gonna go play halo2 in his room and u can watch. kinda sucks. nah just playin, he's takin' me to long island. i'm hopein' we kan go for our anniversary, but i'd hafta miss bowling. people don't know how ( Read more... )