kayla already wrote alot of wicked shit about italy on live journal, does that mean i dont have to??? this french keyboard is driving me crazy and i have everything i want to remember saved in a ratty notebook or in emails to jeff, so really there is no way for it to be forgotten i will now count all the people who will remember this trip, ready ( Read more... )

this morning i woke up, for the first time in maybe a year feeling sincerely happy to be awake and alive, it was overwhelming, wonderful.... hello italy good bye everything else, hello to my halo good bye to my glands

take it to the max. maximum bike trip was a "hoot" hehe, we biked to wisconsin and back, over 100 miles, camping makes me feel good. and i never heard a boy say majestic as much as jon l did.

this topic can be exhausted for everyone but two young girls, kayla and myself. sure you can have your parent pay professionals to cart you around on a field trip to another country, where you have assigned buddies and the next expensive two weeks of your life is planned out on paper, see this monument, visit this chapel, sleep in this overly ( Read more... )

i work in eight hours but havent been able to fall asleep until about four in the morning these past couple days, this leaves me with four hours to go i should add in another hour and make it five o'clock that i finally find sleep for i have trouble falling asleep when i am anxious about not being able to get enough sleep i will be having a bad day ( Read more... )

oh and last night i closed at luce with phil, i call him fill. we decided that since we have a pizza called the bear with a whole bunch of meat on it that we should invent the vegetarian bear, with veggie sausage, and veggie balls, mock duck, phony ronie, maybe a couple veggie nuggets, but then we realized that a vegetarian bear would be nothing ( Read more... )

the other night, kayla, ryan, ashley, dave, jon, cosmo, nick, chris, jay, john, wes, and myself, (this list excludes the unfamiliar people who were also there) went for a drunken explorational hike through the wilderness on the west bank, everything had a good clean summer feel to it. jon and i had a brilliant idea to climb to the roof of a campus ( Read more... )

it seems everyone lives their life for other people, they dream about suicide but never attempt it because of other people, not because they are afraid of death but they are afraid of the continuation of time in this reality, there is no way to understand death and nothingness when you have only experience live and tangible activity, the same as ( Read more... )

it is summer, i have my first summer sunburn, i had my first summer walk through campus, under bridges, in my summer dress, with my summer friend. he disappeared for the winter, i want to know what prompted his return this spring, i have wretched imaginations, i need them because i am leaving soon... i wonder if he is real or if i have just been ( Read more... )

i invent telephone conversations when i fear the process of dialing, the nervous and always too loud and too far away sound of the ringing, the answering machine, i fear the machine most of all, i would never leave a message.. but if i invent a telephone conversation for myself, to help me sleep, to hold my sick little mechanical heart, then maybe ( Read more... )