maybe if you wernt so self fucking centered you would know how to treat the people who care about you. fuck you. if you only fucking knew a few of the things that are going on in my life right now. but of course not. your always just to busy with yourself, especially when i need you there for me the most.

i dont even fucking no what to do anymore.

fuck it. i dont even know what to say.

because no matter what i say no one would ever understand it.

so why bother talking?

why does it feel like i'm on pause and everything esle in the world is on fast forward?

it's going to be a loney winter.

Cause I
Just can't handle losing you again
But the last thing I want is to just be friends
Been through this same thing time and time again
Let's pretend

Let's pretend everythings fine
Put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denial
Let's pretend we're fine

lol why is it that everytime i start to feel good i soon later start to feel like something bad is going to happen? i have no idea what it will be but the feeling is there. it's like somthing doesnt want me to be happy.. it's weird. is it just my tummy? or maybe my subconscious mind knows something i dont? i dono. i hate it. alooot. arrrg.

why am i such a mother fucking fool?

wow

it doesnt matter what you say.

only what you do.

there is only one thing i regret about everything.

i have to ask what we are, but if i ask today i know it just wont last. . .

so i'll be here waiting for you.

i'll never feel this real again.

it doesnt matter.

because i dont matter.

i dont matter today.

why do we always end where we began?
you could break the cycle if you can just understand.
understand. . .

wow

ouchh

haha