Gosh I was an over dramatic teenager. I don't remember being that sad or emo all the time. But it's nice now to be able to look back and laugh. This journal has allowed me to go back to a time when things were a lot more simple then I realized. It also allowed me to smile and remember all the fun nights, laughs, friends, and memories I had. Now ( Read more... )

i think i just should have stayed home tonight. i havent felt this bad in a long time. talk about feeling you dont have a best friend.

This my friends is not a entry to bitch. Gosh i noticed i did that a lot. yea the same things that bothered me then are bothering me now but i dont feel like bitching about it today. I'll instead just write about my day. Well i got up around 11:30 now for all of those out there who know me this my friends is early buuut i wasnt complaining. My mom ( Read more... )

I dunno if its just me but it feels like things are moving back towards the past. Now this may be confusing considering all i used to say is how "i wish things could go back to there way they were" and "how i was never happier then i was then" but im not exactly happy about it all. Life shouldn't ever go back but only forwards. I also cant help but ( Read more... )

so i got up from my "nap" today in a really mad/sad/depressed mood. I was listening to some Buddahead (which i LOVE) and well these lyrics kinda got to me. Sometimes it like the songwritter knows exactly how I feel. . . I've been trying to walk out of my past ( Read more... )

Well, I just remembered I had one of these things. Too much as has gone on its impossible to rehash it all and well some of it id like to forget. Its Monday and kinda grose out but chillaxing after a weekend on Conn. w/ some chidz. It was sooo pretty there and lots of new memories. im getting ready for Kim's party in a few. kinda not excited a ( Read more... )

This was a pretty good birthday thanks to the fam, kim, jenn, dave ( and friends), kirs, mel,ali, kel, nessa, and nisha. My friends were DEF there for me. This wasnt just a one day event it was a whole weekend thang. Starting friday night when jenn and dave got me cake at her party and everyone sang to me. Then nessa called me at work to make sure ( Read more... )

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!! you wanna talk about feeling alone and frustrated. My life has been hell for the past 3 months. I feel like an idiot and im soooo tired I don't wanna deal w/ anyone or anything. I know my friends say that they feel like they understand how I feel and I know that they are there for me. but Im not even here for me ( Read more... )

There's no one in town I know ( Read more... )

well well now where do i start? Things have been a little out of control lately. I have never been more disapointed w/certian people in my life then i am at the moment. School is out of hand and this spring break went wayyyy too fast! I dont wanna go back but at least ill be done by the 1st week of may. lately people have been playing the in and ( Read more... )