Life is so fucking complicated... I don't know what the hell is going on. Joe and I are taking a break. My life is so fucking confusing. I guess I took the break because I found myself infatuated with someone else and didn't want to cheat... So I don't know which is worse... cheating or taking a break so you can be with someone else... and now I ( Read more... )

Quit being a dick. 

It hurts to be alone in the cell I call my home.
But it heals me in my mind without you by my side.
I feel so down and out and you never knew that about me.
When you fought this all away and now I know it was no mistake.

But it's all gone.

Nothing feels good anymore,
everything's wrong yeah!
Nothing feels right anymore.
I'm a slave to my anger,
everything ( Read more... )

 
If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward ( Read more... )

So I'm bored and i got the idea that I am going to turn my music player on shuffle and write down the first line of the first ten songs that play. Now let's see who can guess all of the songs. Leave a comment if you htink you know at least half ( Read more... )

So tomorrow is my eighteenth birthday. I'm not excited at all. I feel like I should be but I'm not. My thanksgiving was okay but my family still argued. I think the best time I had was when I was with Stiffy or Chris. It's sad when your friends are better than your family. I feel like my 18 years of life have been a total waste. Oh and now I have ( Read more... )

So yeah I broke down last wednesday and cut myself. So needless to say I went home. I went to the doctor and he put me on Prozac. Fun fun. I came back to school on Sunday and now I'm packing so that I can leave tomorrow for Thanksgiving break. I'm pretty bummed that Joe couldn't come, but I think I'll be ok. So... yeah now I'm going to rant... ( Read more... )

Today was unexpected
Nothing here is how I left it
Each day that passes by just seems to feed the lie
Closing in around me makes it so hard to see
Now I'm standing on the ledge
My foot creeps closer to the edge
Friends all know what to say
To make me push them away
What they can't know about me makes it so hard to see

I'm not holding my tongue for you ( Read more... )

So today sucked balls again. Ugh. I had my lesson which was okay but like my academic classes are sucking. I forgot to read for english, but that was okay. I am totally fucking lost in pre-calculus. Insanely fucking lost. I had to make up a quiz today and I can gurantee you that I bombed it. I am so lost and I don't have time to get tutored because ( Read more... )

So.. I dunno what to do with my life. I love Joe more than anything but recently it seems we fight more and more. I don't know if it's because we haven't seen eachother in person since March or because we're both stressed or what. I dunno... I'm sure things will even out ( Read more... )