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last updated 18 weeks ago...
let's see, where was i 18 weeks ago? probably back on this computer in miami stressing about leaving for israel. i was so nervous to come here, i wasn't sure what i was getting myself into. i had to do it though because i've been through so many involuntary changes and have made lives out of them, why couldn't volunteer for this oppurtunity to ( Read more... ) -
fear of the unknown
August 25 is just around the corner and i'm freaking out. Not freaking out loud, but freaking out. I'm so scared to leave I don't know what happened. I was so high off of Israel when I came back but it's been this Miami i've gotten comfortable with. I've been back here since January 2007 from the Carrrrrolinas. Another change another change- ironic ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Work & Self-Worth
you mean, do i think i'm better then weighing tea? sure. i wont be there forever. -
unwind.
wow. i don't think i've been this busy since... well.. since.. i've ever been that involved with school... which is new to me on my last month of school...sort of.
my fortune cookie said to expect surprises, and i can't believe my choir teacher, who hates me, yells at me because i never show up only because she totally discouraged me to... gave me a ( Read more... ) -
ha-le-friggin-ulah
I finally got my results back from the SATs and went up significantly in the math- so I can go to FIU or FAU now....
and now I don't want to go to FIU or FAU... I still don't know what i'm going to do. I really want to leave!!!
I need to prioritize my feelings but I can't right now. They're all fucked up. I wish I could actually listen to ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: It's Hard to Describe
It's hard to describe
what's in my head. What I think, what I feel. What I want to show, what I want people to know...
Why I act certain ways, why I don't do certain things...
Why I am so unpredictable, and when people think that I don't think, it's only because I choose not to acknowledge.. but i'm all there....
Now, if only I could describe that.. ( Read more... ) -
Allison, I think you'll understand.. haha
Basically, this morning was so completely crazy for me and i'm still running on a wire because I don't know if i'm off the hook.
Today was the day at Hillhell, so I decided not to go...and keep in mind, skipping in my household is like committing a sin.. horrible
and I haven't skipped since last year and that was the worst experience...
So I stayed up ( Read more... ) -
Wishful thinking
I was having fun all day at work yesterday until I came home and it was like WHAM.. I feel like shit.
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT
and I had a shitty day.
school grades colleges SATs school grades colleges SATs...
I thought about everything I had stopped doing and all the bad habits I picked back up
I hadn't been to the gym in at least a month and a half and I ( Read more... ) -
good night moon
you know ( Read more... ) -
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i just made 60 dollars in 5 minutes :-)
It's risky, but how else do ya make extra cash...
(and it's definitely not what you're thinkin')
Last night was pretty depressing for me. When I get that depressed I feel my shoulders get really heavy and I just feel... well, depressed.
20 minutes of a silent conversation with my dad, he indirectly tells me he ( Read more... )