This week has been monumental for me. I signed a lease with Ian for our new home. <3 This place will be both of ours. Starting fresh together. I won't feel like I'm in someone elses space, where I would be out of line were I to get comfortable or make changes ( Read more... )

Being stuck in New York is... quite strange. I have such an odd love/hate relationship with this city. Was I supposed to get stuck here to confront my demons that I left behind here? I almost feel like I needed to do this to really figure out what I wanted in relation to this city. To really confront the reasons I left. To remember who I was ( Read more... )

I suppose it's time to start doing what I "think" a 24 year old Ryanne ought to be doing. I'm a work in progress, but I really want to be a work in progress. I spent sometime being a work in stagnation gathering dust bunnies.

When i was a young lass, I always imagined that when I turned 18, 21, 24 I'd have it all figured out. Turns out, 24 doesn't feel so different than many of my prior birthdays. I'm sure this is partly because the knowledge and wisdom that we gain is gradual and not a marked download of wisdom upon each birthday. Twenty-four sounds like a "it's ( Read more... )

I look like I took a casual stroll through the heart of the Amazon rain forest wearing nothing but sugar water instead of bug spray. o_O Alright, it's not that bad, but they came back this afternoon. I've never been allergic to anything in my life. This is so weird. Plus everything I've consumed is standard stuff. I can't figure out what's ( Read more... )

I realized I was wearing my ex boyfriends shirt when the hives broke out. I think I have developed an allergy to him. :P

For the first time in my life, I have hives. I thought it strange when it felt like I had a bug bite on my neck . . considering it's winter and all. After a trip to the mirror, turns out I was turning into the elephant woman quickly. Gobbled some Benadryl and took a bath. They seem to be slowly subsiding. Weird ( Read more... )

In future, break up with people before holidays like Valentine's Day and their birthday. heh. I have returned to the land of the uncoupled humans. It's actually legitimately for the best, and it almost happened a few times recently. It was time. I feel pretty settled about it overall ( Read more... )

I find I always want to be super cryptic in my journal, which largely defeats the purpose of having a 'live journal'. So oddly secretive ( Read more... )

It is amazing what a little exercise can do for one's sanity. I'd like to get this sanity maintainer as a more regular entry on the old agenda ( Read more... )