So it looks like that it truly is my time to start driving...
We have friend selling a car at a really awesom eprice and they truly need the money.. and I have been wanting to drive for the freedom of leaving when I want...
But I am still deathely afraid of getting behind the wheel.. its been  almost 5 years now since that terrible accident i was in ( Read more... )

After last weeks horrible obstacles.. I have reconnected myself..well with myself...
I have had a pretty good weekend so far...!!
I am actually starting to hang out with somefriends and stuff, trying to break out of my bubble... my anti-social bubble..!!!

BUT all in all I am much better.. thank you everyone for the support!!

MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT TO ALL ( Read more... )

So I have had probably the worst luck the past couple days...
Of course money problems.. they havnt ben an issue for quit some time..we have been very comfortable the past few months surprisingly.... and now all of sudden we had a snowball effect hit us hard smack dab in the face.. all can be taken care of. but it is taking all my patience and ( Read more... )

This is the great season of them all.. I loev it soo damn much.... I wake up in the morning and sit on my porch sipping my morning hot tea and write in my journal.. I love it, not to cold not to hot, theres always something in the air this time of year that sucks me in and captivates me... I need to get my lisence soon so I can go and enjoy this ( Read more... )

I was listening to the fergie CD today.. And I found a song that is soooo me.... almost exactly!!
LOL.. I sound concieted when I say this, but I love hearing songs that fit me and my life.. I guess it makes me feel not so alone in thgis world sometimes..Weird  I know.. anywho...
I highlighted to parts that meant alot to me.
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I had a crazy day ( Read more... )

I feel as though i am walkibng on broken glass.. only to swim in a river of alcohol...
Why me.. i always ask... why now is my answer....
tears of acid sting my very exsistence....

cant wait to see what tomorrow dishes out for me... maybe a plate of steaming anthrax

[sorry to sound so bitter... but if you only knew]

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today the day of my sorrow once again...
my heart once agin riped out of my chest and thrown aside...
will my sorrow ever end?
will it ever ^*&%^@!$!@(W*&)!@(&!)@(&!@!%^%#@@(*#^@*&#@*&!%@&!^

....... ........ ....... Just be....... ......... ........

So yet another morning waking up at 4 am ready to puke up a third world country... [yes i know tmi ( Read more... )