I felt somewhat ambushed by the lack of preparation I had in comparison to yours, but then I was never one to take other peoples personal inventory. I guess I could have written a list comparable to yours in which I outlined the times when you've made me feel pathetic, or stupid and why, but frankly I didn't see how that could possibly be ( Read more... )

"It's dark, I cannot see!" I verbalize the realization as I wake to blackness but not before noticing that I cannot move. I tight grip firmly holds my wrists and ankles down and a dank smell assails me like an old dusty warehouse long forgotten by all but the local children who still throw stones through the windows but are too scared to enter. As ( Read more... )

The overly crowded dealer's room had a heavy scent of leather, dust and sweat in the air and I could feel myself begin to perspire as I crossed the threshold into the ballroom. I wasn't sure it if was the noticeably warmer and stuffy atmosphere, the claustrophobic environment, or the overall dreary lighting cast from the wretchedly tacky chandlers ( Read more... )

I keep trying to post these astounding revelations I have all day long about so many fascinating things. Unfortunately I can't get half way through a paragraph before I find myself having several more interesting and groundbreaking epiphanies through the simple act of writing it down ( Read more... )

I hate the double standards of today. I'm a good guy damnit! I may make an occasional mistake from time to time, but no more than most. I'm also more giving, considerate, patient, open minded, non-judging than any single person I've ever had an opportunity to meet. One person comes to mind that could have me beat, but he doesn't really count ( Read more... )

It's me! Every girl ever ( Read more... )

Never have I had so many emotionally awakening experiences in such a short flicker in time. I had for many months made plans for the 4th of July weekend primarily to make every possible effort to right some much overdue wrongs. In fact, were it not for my desire to to offer my humility and humiliations to Melody, I very probably would not have gone ( Read more... )

For those of us who have delved into the writings of Peter Carrol and found ourselves thirsting for more than simply a magical practicing system, here lies the path to a faith drawn entirely from the tenants of CMT. Call it a religion of Chaos if you will as it marries all current understandings of modern physics, biology and history with every ( Read more... )

She recoils from me like a child from a monster. From the topics I discuss to the intimate caress, from the activities we used to enjoy together to the pleas for attention from her own sons. She recoils when I try to express my love, she cringes when I beg her to participate in life. She has recoiled so much from everything me and everything family ( Read more... )

1) The only opinions about my relationship with Jen that matter are those of people who have actually lived with us and seen her behavior and mine first hand. Fortunately for Jen I have more integrity than she does and ignored every family member and friend who slandered her over and over again and made the most horrible predictions about her that ( Read more... )